lost friends
Alright. So I've have had a pretty fucked up past few days..
Mostly what I care about right now is that one of my best friends doesn't want anything to do with me anymore. He says that I fucked up his life (never mind that he fucked mine up pretty badly as well...) and that neither one of us has been getting anything out of our friendship for the past few months.
He yells at me all the time for breaking promises that I never made.
We made one together a long time ago and I was sticking to it. It meant a lot to me. I found out that he has been lying to me since the middle of December about a lot of shit.
I don't really know how to put this in ways that anyone else would understand... It's just really hard for me right now. Granted, we haven't been talking much for the past few months but to know that I can't call if i really needed him.. to know that he wouldn't answer the phone.. it just really hurts.
To know that he doesn't want anything to do with me.. because I skrewed up so badly.. it's really hard. :(
We're giving ourselves a month away from eachother entirely. No phone, no email, no MySpace, no computer, nothing. We aren't friends. We aren't anything. Then, after school lets out, we'll come backa nd talk about everything again and see if anyone's perspective has changed..
I miss him.
I miss his friendship and his advice and I really feel like everyone close to me wants me to just fall of the face of the earth..
He actually said that he doesn't know if he wants to get so close to me again as to be able to call me his best friend. Do you have any idea how much that hurt me?
yeah.. my past few days have sucked.
I tried to talk to someone about it but they pretty much blew me off.
So whatev.
Mostly what I care about right now is that one of my best friends doesn't want anything to do with me anymore. He says that I fucked up his life (never mind that he fucked mine up pretty badly as well...) and that neither one of us has been getting anything out of our friendship for the past few months.
He yells at me all the time for breaking promises that I never made.
We made one together a long time ago and I was sticking to it. It meant a lot to me. I found out that he has been lying to me since the middle of December about a lot of shit.
I don't really know how to put this in ways that anyone else would understand... It's just really hard for me right now. Granted, we haven't been talking much for the past few months but to know that I can't call if i really needed him.. to know that he wouldn't answer the phone.. it just really hurts.
To know that he doesn't want anything to do with me.. because I skrewed up so badly.. it's really hard. :(
We're giving ourselves a month away from eachother entirely. No phone, no email, no MySpace, no computer, nothing. We aren't friends. We aren't anything. Then, after school lets out, we'll come backa nd talk about everything again and see if anyone's perspective has changed..
I miss him.
I miss his friendship and his advice and I really feel like everyone close to me wants me to just fall of the face of the earth..
He actually said that he doesn't know if he wants to get so close to me again as to be able to call me his best friend. Do you have any idea how much that hurt me?
yeah.. my past few days have sucked.
I tried to talk to someone about it but they pretty much blew me off.
So whatev.