is there hope for the hopeless?
finally lj, i got internet at my apt! this is amazing.. for months i have been fighting with the cable people.. and this whole not watching tv thing...WOW.. cable makes a difference.. i mean i hate tv but i love watching movies.. and thats all i have been doing.. and of course looking for jobs cuz BEING BROKE SUCKS in the most major way. I've been in such a rut and depressed but i think i finally came to accepting that shit sucks. and work is on its way.. I've grown accustomed to it... being unemployed and scrambling for money to make rent and other bills and such. i really don't have much to say... things are looking better in a different light. whatever that light may be. i have the greatest people around me and i feel social again.. thats a plus i suppose. I have a great girl...well...we know that situ...but she's still fabulously amazing.. and nef..i don't know about hetero sex..but i like homo sex MUCH MUCH better.. lol ~sigh~ Things will work out.. I just needed a disturbing shake up where i just had to re-analyze my life.. perhaps i was just being really really careless and karma is whipping me back into shape and giving me a chance to really appreciate things... that's one way to look at it. hm.. well still looking for a JOBBY JOB to hold me over till i find something that i will love and that would love me back..i remember saying that i never wanted to get married unless it's to my job because it can't love me back....you know what...a part of me still believes that.. but...i like being loved...i'm not ready to get married to my career just yet.. i'm still "dating" lol...well ok enough updating...missed you alot lj...=)