ummmmmm....yeah.....
well i got an intresting story, mary got pregnent, yeah her fault, its not like anyone shoved a cock in her pussy, but she is fucking taking all her god damn problems out on me, so fuck her, oh wair she already did that, i fucking give up, anyway yet another great gaterhing is planned for friday, rolling smoking drinking, and fun! yay! it will get my mind of the shit i am dealing with, i need a girlfriend, it might remind me that there is someone out there who does care about, me not a parental figure, but someone who physically loves me, god im such an emo, all i need to do is put on my glasses and i am like the perfect emo kid, fuck thats a sick thought, because i would make emos look bad, getting fucked up every day, damn thats my life, well if anyone wants to join BEANFEST 2004 just leave a fucking comment, but nobody reads my journal except like maybe 2 people? i dunno? i fucking give up, this is what has happend to my life i have become a loser, someone when they comment next on my journal, remind me why i live? i need an answer, or what good i do in this life, i feel so noglasotic, so noglastotic, its fucking cathardic, now im using high vocabulary there is seriously somthing wrong with that, god dammit pass me a blunt, preferablly honey dutch, they just taste so nice and sweet