Oct 25, 2004 15:48
Man I never use this. I hate the internet, I really do, and I don't have the patience for this and I should be writing my history paper. It's so hard to know what it is to be a normal, well-balanced human being. I procrastinate, I'm confused about politics, I like good food, I go to school, I can never find or hold a job, I don't treat people with the respect I think they deserve. I guess I'm solid red-white-and-blue american.
I hope someone reads this, I miss my friends. I've become kind of a hermit. I'm making new friends at church who I love, but I just remembered how long it's been since I saw my high school friends, I love you guys so much. I always feel awkward socially. I guess that makes me exceptionally normal.
I love Rachel so much and I'm really glad that she still cares about me after months of me being a jerk to her. Man I miss treating her as well as I used to. I've never been in a relationship this long and I guess it got really easy to take her for granted. I think I used to be a romantic. I used to take pride in that. It felt so much better than the pride.
I don't know why I'm posting all of this. I guess I want to keep in touch with my old friends. I hope some of you guys read this and call me or something. I miss playing with movie vs film, that was so fulfilling. I love norman. I think I used to hate it because of some ancient-yankee teen angst, but I fell in love with it. I think I could be comfortable sleeping on any street in town. I love my religion. I've always gotten flak for being morman, but I'm really glad I am. It's so true. There's no way I would be happy without the truth.
This is my favorite stuff to talk about. I think the more I tried to be different the more normal I became. I think this kind of stuff is most people's favorite stuff to talk about. I do think I'm eccentric by nature. I don't know why people don't usually talk about this stuff. I don't think there's anything abnormal about any of this.
Well I don't know if anyone will ever see this. I hope someone responds, I love all of you. thank you for letting me be candid.