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my mood: happy, content, thankful, joyful, a little bit of pain mixed in.
So, I am home from the hospital. forgive me if i make a lot of mistakes, i'm leaning way back in my chair so my back doesn't give out again haha, and my glasses aren't so great. i know i didn't do so well with that in my last entry haha.
This was probably the most discouraging, eye-opening hospital stay I've had. I thought the last one was, no, this beat it by far. i think that's why i was a little dis-heartened by the very few phone calls i got. but i got over it, i don't mind. God never left my side.
I came home today with no answers and a throbbing migrain. Yeah...I've been blessed with migrains. probably from this shot i'm getting, which i will stop getting if that's the case, but still, they hurt.
i didn't accept anything that was happening to me, i think that's why it was so hard this time. i didn't get it until i was curled up in a ball this morning because my migrain had actually spread through my body. i got it then. i needed to listen to God, stop trying to avoid it. then i fell asleep, woke up, and the pain was gone. these things hurt, but as long as i have something to squeeze really hard, and remember "My grace is sufficient for you" I'm going to be ok, i realized that too.
this is what i learned the past week, summed up. it was a difficult week, but He is bringing me through fire so that I will be like untarnished gold, and "a good soldier for Jesus Christ"
so, i want to talk about the spinal tap. before it, they put this numbing stuff on my back, and then tape over it to keep it in place [has to sit there for 30 minutes]. yeah, the jell stuff started leaking out of the bottom of the tape, it felt like it was going to run down my pants. but i was afraid to touch it...i didn't want my hands to be numb. so it's time for the LP [spinal tap], and the nurse gives me this type of valium that goes in my IV, it doesn't work, so she gives me another dose. yeah...i was laughing during the whole LP. my nurse, and another volonteer [whose name is sarah haha] had to hold me in the "c" position because i couldn't hold still from laughing. it was like taking a psychedelic trip to the 70's haha. i was soooo trippy it was unbelievable. after they took the needle out, i video-taped the needle, and the fluid they took from my back. you would never know i had just had a huge needle stuck in my back. sarah thought i was pretty funny...i guess they only liked me when i was loopy on drugs haha. so that's my spinal tap story. they're really not the bad, just be careful how you sit down the day afterwards [my back is all messed up because i sat on my bed with no support the next day].
ok, i'm not supposed to be on here too long, so i have to get off. night all.
So, I am home from the hospital. forgive me if i make a lot of mistakes, i'm leaning way back in my chair so my back doesn't give out again haha, and my glasses aren't so great. i know i didn't do so well with that in my last entry haha.
This was probably the most discouraging, eye-opening hospital stay I've had. I thought the last one was, no, this beat it by far. i think that's why i was a little dis-heartened by the very few phone calls i got. but i got over it, i don't mind. God never left my side.
I came home today with no answers and a throbbing migrain. Yeah...I've been blessed with migrains. probably from this shot i'm getting, which i will stop getting if that's the case, but still, they hurt.
i didn't accept anything that was happening to me, i think that's why it was so hard this time. i didn't get it until i was curled up in a ball this morning because my migrain had actually spread through my body. i got it then. i needed to listen to God, stop trying to avoid it. then i fell asleep, woke up, and the pain was gone. these things hurt, but as long as i have something to squeeze really hard, and remember "My grace is sufficient for you" I'm going to be ok, i realized that too.
this is what i learned the past week, summed up. it was a difficult week, but He is bringing me through fire so that I will be like untarnished gold, and "a good soldier for Jesus Christ"
so, i want to talk about the spinal tap. before it, they put this numbing stuff on my back, and then tape over it to keep it in place [has to sit there for 30 minutes]. yeah, the jell stuff started leaking out of the bottom of the tape, it felt like it was going to run down my pants. but i was afraid to touch it...i didn't want my hands to be numb. so it's time for the LP [spinal tap], and the nurse gives me this type of valium that goes in my IV, it doesn't work, so she gives me another dose. yeah...i was laughing during the whole LP. my nurse, and another volonteer [whose name is sarah haha] had to hold me in the "c" position because i couldn't hold still from laughing. it was like taking a psychedelic trip to the 70's haha. i was soooo trippy it was unbelievable. after they took the needle out, i video-taped the needle, and the fluid they took from my back. you would never know i had just had a huge needle stuck in my back. sarah thought i was pretty funny...i guess they only liked me when i was loopy on drugs haha. so that's my spinal tap story. they're really not the bad, just be careful how you sit down the day afterwards [my back is all messed up because i sat on my bed with no support the next day].
ok, i'm not supposed to be on here too long, so i have to get off. night all.