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[And Another One]
And Another One
1. How old would you be if you didn’t know how old you are?
I'd say 17/18
2. Which is worse, failing or never trying?
Never Trying, which is why I get annoyed at myself.
3. If life is so short, why do we do so many things we don’t like and like so many things we don’t do?
Because if all did what we like, Anarchy would prevail
4. When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done?
Yup, more than likely - due to my inaction because of my fear of failing
5. What is the one thing you’d most like to change about the world?
Hereditary wealth and the nepotism that comes with it
6. If happiness was the national currency, what kind of work would make you rich?
Hmmm... Good question. Music, probably
7. Are you doing what you believe in, or are you settling for what you are doing?
If all goes well gradeswise this summer, the former
8. If the average human life span was 40 years, how would you live your life differently?
I don't know. probably would try and be more spontaneous
9. To what degree have you actually controlled the course your life has taken?
I've controlled point A and Point B. the in between has been a bit weird
10. Are you more worried about doing things right, or doing the right things?
Depends on the things.
11. You’re having lunch with three people you respect and admire. They all start criticizing a close friend of yours, not knowing she is your friend. The criticism is distasteful and unjustified. What do you do?
I've done this before and stuck up for them while acknowledging their faults.
12. If you could offer a newborn child only one piece of advice, what would it be?
Always keep your options open and never let anyone push you down one specific road
13. Would you break the law to save a loved one?
In a heartbeat.
14. Have you ever seen insanity where you later saw creativity?
I've seen insanity and I've seen creativity - the two are very different.
15. What’s something you know you do differently than most people?
Mental Arithmetic.
16. How come the things that make you happy don’t make everyone happy?
Because we're all different
17. What one thing have you not done that you really want to do? What’s holding you back?
Going to the states. Purely becauseI't damn hard to get a job because I have no work experiecne at all and am constantly up against folt who have it
18. Are you holding onto something you need to let go of?
Yes.
19. If you had to move to a state or country besides the one you currently live in, where would you move and why?
I have no idea.
20. Do you push the elevator button more than once? Do you really believe it makes the elevator faster?
No, Put I do puch the buttons on crossings constantly despite knowing it does nothing
21. Would you rather be a worried genius or a joyful simpleton?
I had this discussion the other night - I'm no genius, but I think I'm too intelligent in some aspects which means I over analyse which gets me down
22. Why are you, you?
Because I am not you. I've had a lot of life experiences which have shaped me
23. Have you been the kind of friend you want as a friend?
I'd say so, for the most part only thing is that I'm terrible at initiating conversation because - despite being told it's not the case - I always feel like people don't want to talk to me.
24. Which is worse, when a good friend moves away, or losing touch with a good friend who lives right near you?
Both as bad in different ways, although the former has an unfortunate tendency to create a loss of touch at times
25. What are you most grateful for?
My friends. they mean so much to me
26. Would you rather lose all of your old memories, or never be able to make new ones?
If I had to pick, I'd probably do with the first one, ASSUMING I keep the ability to form new ones, since people could turn the old old one into New old ones, if that makes sense
27. Is it possible to know the truth without challenging it first?
There are no universal truths
28. Has your greatest fear ever come true?
Yes and no in 2 senses. one of them can't really "come true" until i snuff it, the other - a close friend dying - thankfully hasn't happened
29. Do you remember that time 5 years ago when you were extremely upset? Does it really matter now?
2007. I was in 5th year and things were gradually beginning to look up... although it all fell to bits later. It doesn't matter in the grand scheme of things, but it still eats away at my and is probably part of why I don't have a great deal of self esteem.
30. What is your happiest childhood memory? What makes it so special?
I didn't really ever have a happy childhood. Parents fought all the time, Dad was -and is- an alcoholic who was -and is- an abusive wanker, split up when I was 7, but had been on the cards since I was born, mum went into refuge with me and my sis with pretty much the clothes on our backs... yeah. I'm sure there were happy times, but I don't remember them, probably because of the swathes of bad
31. At what time in your recent past have you felt most passionate and alive?
Hogmanay this/last year. Massive party at one of my mates form college's place. I felt better than I had done for a long time
32. If not now, then when?
If not us, then who?
33. If you haven’t achieved it yet, what do you have to lose?
Depends on how long you've tried - sometimes you need to reassess and say "this isn't working". so potentially, time
34. Have you ever been with someone, said nothing, and walked away feeling like you just had the best conversation ever?
I've had moments like that, just total bliss, yeah
35. Why do religions that support love cause so many wars?
Because each one of them believes their version of events is correct and gets too caught up in trying to convince everyone else rather than just thinking live and let live. (can't improve that)
36. Is it possible to know, without a doubt, what is good and what is evil?
There are VERY few things on each side which are concrete - the rest is dependent on perspective.
37. If you just won a million dollars, would you quit your job?
I don't have one, but I'd stay in it if i did, yeah.
38. Would you rather have less work to do, or more work you actually enjoy doing?
MOre that I Enjoy.
39. Do you feel like you’ve lived this day a hundred times before?
Yup. mid 2010 to mid 2011 was groundhog day with different lighting.
40. When was the last time you marched into the dark with only the soft glow of an idea you strongly believed in?
August
41. If you knew that everyone you know was going to die tomorrow, who would you visit today?
Everybody I knew? Would it be trite to say my family? Mum, sister, Grandparents. There's a few other people I'd feel terrible about not seeing though outside of my family.
42. Would you be willing to reduce your life expectancy by 10 years to become extremely attractive or famous?
Yup, I have real issues about how I look
43. What is the difference between being alive and truly living?
Life is existing, Living is getting fulfilment
44. When is it time to stop calculating risk and rewards, and just go ahead and do what you know is right?
I don't know - it's not my strongest suit
45. If we learn from our mistakes, why are we always so afraid to make a mistake?
Because most of the things we're scared to make mistakes about are things we percieve to be important
46. What would you do differently if you knew nobody would judge you?
So many things.
47. When was the last time you noticed the sound of your own breathing?
Just now that I read that.
48. What do you love? Have any of your recent actions openly expressed this love?
I love a lot of things - english and reading and language and all things in sort of sphere are a biggy. depending on how we define recent, 2 years ago, I dropped everything to go back to college to do subjects that'd allow me to do an english degree, if I get 2As and a B, or an A and 2 Bs, I'll be doing that english degree, and if i just miss out, then I'll look into going somewhere through clearing to do the degree.
49. In 5 years from now, will you remember what you did yesterday? What about the day before that? Or the day before that?
I barely remember now
50. Decisions are being made right now. The question is: Are you making them for yourself, or are you letting others make them for you?
Some are out of my hands, Some are to be made by me, Some, I don't know