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I guess I was kind of worried that the circularity was re-manifesting itself within different people. Different people who, I suppose, represent the same things.
But then you actually get to know these people.
These representations.
And they develop their own definition, and in turn, their own circularity.
And in some weird way it makes you think that you've moved on.
Because, while it's still a circle, it's not the same circle.
And I, being a different person than I was at 17, can't possibly experience the same experiences.
So the justification is in that.
Just that. That's the key.
Whether or not I perform the same stupid act is not the point, because it is essentially not the same.
I am different, therefore the act is different.
And I don't care what you say. (<---- defense mechanism)
But then you actually get to know these people.
These representations.
And they develop their own definition, and in turn, their own circularity.
And in some weird way it makes you think that you've moved on.
Because, while it's still a circle, it's not the same circle.
And I, being a different person than I was at 17, can't possibly experience the same experiences.
So the justification is in that.
Just that. That's the key.
Whether or not I perform the same stupid act is not the point, because it is essentially not the same.
I am different, therefore the act is different.
And I don't care what you say. (<---- defense mechanism)