Things Are Really Good Right Now
Words just can't express how great my life is at this moment. I have this wonderful new girlfriend who never ceases to amaze me by how caring, thoughtful, and understanding she is with me. Every time I think that things couldn't possibly be better between the two of us, what happens? They get even better! And I just love being in a relationship where I can still be me and not just half of the other person. It's so weird to me how the only pressure I feel right now is the pressure I put on myself...K are I are just letting things happen and seeing where it all goes. I don't have to BE anything or DO anything! I get to be me--just me. And she likes me--for who I am. It's been slowly dawning on me how wonderful it is to NOT have to pretend to be cool when you're a big dork or play hard to get when you've already been gotten. I'm finding myself just being...not always thinking about how to make a good impression or worrying about what she's thinking of me. I'm just letting go--for better or for worse. And the me that she likes is really me. It's definitely scary at times when I realize how much of myself I'm putting out there, but it's good. And this is exactly what I need right now.