SPN Fic: Difference

[mymuseandi]

Fandom: Supernatural

Genre: Gen

Rating: PG-13 for a lot of the F words. It's weird (for me, at least) but fun to make them cuss so much.

Word count: ~4, 700

Characters: Sam, Dean, Bobby and Jessica

Spoilers: This is an AU, so no spoilers! However, this is set a year before the canon-pilot, so all the Winchesters' reactions are in compliance to the

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[hansons_angel]

Oh, sweet Jesus. This was my prompt and I wasn't sure anyone was going to bother with it because it was so -- small and difficult in many ways. At least -- I found it difficult, LOL -- which is why I shoved it out there, hoping someone else would be able to take a crack at it.

This was EPIC. In so many ways. So many. I couldn't read it fast enough the first time, and then I went through it a second time and tried to take it slower, really soak it in, but the same thing happened, I raced through it because I just wanted to get it all into my head as quick as I could, so many images and words that I wanted to commit to my mind because they were so good.

(Ha-ha, I need to quit saying "so good," find better adjectives to describe what I think about this).

I loved that it stayed very true to what I saw happening when I tried to write it -- especially all of the interaction between Dean and Sam, that fantastic tension and sadness and anger -- you did absolutely fantastic with that. I think my favorite part, the part that did me in was when they got John's body and then washed it and oh, Christ almighty I can't even really type that without welling up because I can so clearly see this all playing out and it is so tneder and heartbreaking and GAH. So good. I say that's my favorite part and it is but there are so many others in the running as well -- the exchange between Sam and Dean about Dean going back to Stanford -- many, that was all so well-written, the explosiveness in the midst of their grief -- and this:

"I didn't tell Jess, or anyone else, about you or Dad because...because I'm afraid that if I start talking, I won't stop. And if I don't stop talking, I'll have you both in my mind, I'll start missing you. And then it's only a matter of time that I'll start worrying and start searching and...and dropping everything else."

Is utter perfection. ♥ Probably my favorite lines of the whole story. Maybe even of any story I've read where Sam tries to explain to Dean why he never tells anyone about his previous life.

And this:

Nothing's changed, really. The world is still revolving. His father is still dead. Sam is still going back to his apple-pie life once Stanford is in sight. He's still grieving and missing John so much it's like losing a limb. There's still many more things left to hunt. Adding that all up, he's still not making a fucking difference to anyone.

But as Dean guns the engine, he glances at the rearview mirror, and sees Sam smiling and giving him a thumbs up, and he amends his last thought.

Well, that's a difference right there.

Is sheer love and heart-moving and so very beautiful. ♥

I love Bobby and I love that there are so many open avenues to explore in this story -- things you could add on, write more about, like Sam and Jess' road trip, or Dean continuing on now or just more in depth detail about -- anything. It's all great and if you ever chose to write more I'd be more than thrilled to read it : ) And the way you have it now -- I'm more than honored at how beautifully you took my prompt and gave it this wonderful, emotion-filled life that I know I could've never done. : ) Grief-stricken Dean -- and even Sam -- is one of my very favorite things, and when it's done as well as you've done it -- there's nothing like it for me. Grief is hard to get across and make the reader feel, but you did it effortlessly, and thank you so much for that ♥.

And yes, you should get to your BB -- because we need to see what you've done. If it's anything like this, we are in for a major treat : )

[mymuseandi]

First of all, I apologize for taking such a long time to reply, I'm so immersed in my summergen and my BB. And secondly, YEAY, YOU LIKED IT! :)

I raced through it because I just wanted to get it all into my head as quick as I could, so many images and words that I wanted to commit to my mind because they were so good.

This is simply so sweet of you, thank you so much. This is one of the highest compliments a writer can get, and I'm thrilled that you are so pleased with my response to your prompt.

I think my favorite part, the part that did me in was when they got John's body and then washed it...

That's one of my favorite parts too, especially because I think the should have shown an actual scene of that, and that it comes from a personal experience.

I love that there are so many open avenues to explore in this story

I didn't intend to write it that way, but after it was posted I reread it again and thought that the ending was a little open-ended, so yeah, who knows right??

What I love about your prompt is that Dean was acting the same way as he did when Sam was killed in AHBL, and i thought, what if there's none of the deal and demons and contracts and the weight of the burden that John had placed on Dean's shoulders just before he died? Would Dean have reacted the same way as he did?

And the prompt didn't specify when John's death had to be, so again, I thought, what if he died way before the pilot when Sam was still in Stanford? And again, your prompt had some much latitude but at the same time there's a direction to it, so it really attracts me!

Unfortunately (or fortunately, I'm not sure) my BB is angst free, for most part, but I'll be so thrilled if you want to check it out when it's posted!

Thanks so much for reading and giving the prompt! *hugz*