i dont enjoy being a pessimist!
i really really despise being in a bad mood! and right now, despite all the eating i am...im so lucky im not like incredibly fat because like wow i definatly should be considering how much i eat!! but i dno it just kinda bites im in a bad mood and i cant seem to do nething to fix it! the whole me n mario relationship thing was really hurt both of us, we were i guess trying to be friends but in my opinion all we were doind was hurting eachother, so i decided it would be better for both of us we didnt really talk nemore and for some reason i was being extremely calm(minus the whole crying thing) and rational about it, but then i lost it cuz he got pissed and started cussing at me n junk and i dont handle shit like that very well...i guess im kinda overly sensitive sometimes...i dno its like i know ive been a bitch to him in the past but its like through everything that happened while we were together all he can do is focus on all the totally horrible things i did to him and honestly that hurts that our relationship didnt mean enuf to him that he cant look back on it and atleast find a coupld good memories...i dno im not selfish and im really not a bitch and i know all that but i had to make a decision that was good for me, i decided me n mario shouldnt talk nemore, at all, atleast for a while, the whole attempting to be friends thing wasnt working AT ALL and i cant deal with it nemore, im getting tired of having to consciously ignore someone who im supposed to trust so much tell me how selfish and bitchy i am, and thats not something i feel the need to put myself through...maybe i am a bitch sometimes but who isnt, so why is it so hard to forgive and forget if the person has apoligized, ill never understand...im not the kinda person who usually just gives up on stuff but thats all i could think of to do in this situation...