guilty pleasures
A Guilty Pleasure is something that you enjoy that you think you shouldn't enjoy, either for personal reasons or because of the possibility of other's reactions.
I could list down a hundred things that I would find pleasure in doing but does not do because of moral constraints and social expectations.
Do I really need to feel guilty for going beyond the limits set to me by society?
Am I not entitled to enjoy things as they are simply because I am girl?
Nobody is persecuting me yet, but the the social surveillance within myself is alarming.
And I somehow feel the need to punish myself now for doing something that is pleasureable but out of bounds.