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I am not sure where I lost my confidence, but I have. I use to walk anywhere and felt so confident. I use to be able to go on dates, have self confident and if they didn't like me my philosophy was it was there loss, not mine. Now that has all changed, I feel so insecure about a ton of things. I haven't been asked out in a year, and haven't asked anyone out in that same period. :(
Why? I think its because after getting fucked over soo soo much, you lose a little part of yourself. A part that you will probably never get back. I just feel like I will get fucked over again and again and again....
I have been hurt so much, I would rather not take the chance to find someone I care about, because I could get hurt.... How do you get back the confidence to start over? How do you put the hurtful things in the past? I have ruined so many opportunities to meet new friends or lovers because I have sabotaged myself...
I.e. not going, questioning why they like me, or want to hang out with me or be with me. I inadvertently push people away, push people out of my life. ...
Why? I think its because after getting fucked over soo soo much, you lose a little part of yourself. A part that you will probably never get back. I just feel like I will get fucked over again and again and again....
I have been hurt so much, I would rather not take the chance to find someone I care about, because I could get hurt.... How do you get back the confidence to start over? How do you put the hurtful things in the past? I have ruined so many opportunities to meet new friends or lovers because I have sabotaged myself...
I.e. not going, questioning why they like me, or want to hang out with me or be with me. I inadvertently push people away, push people out of my life. ...