fate isn't what we're up against
well, i drove with rebecca and erica to gainesville last night at about midnight, which was very fun which is not very surprising since they are fun and fun times are generally had with fun people... imagine the surprise
anyway, although the ride down there was very eventful and very fun i an not imagine for the life of me what fun was had besides we played a fun game. perhaps going to bed at four am is not the best way to ensure the longivity of my short term or long term memory for that matter.
i do remember though on the way back thinking about whether or not i would redo my senior year in highschool. the idea just came to me as i was sitting in the back seat and i realized. i would, definatley without a doubt redo my senior year in highschool
but not because i would like to do things differently
... its a weird thought so i mean i'm still pretty much in shock that i just randomly said it then realized how exactly true it was....
but there were a lot of quintessential things that happened this year. well not quintessential but i'd say pretty damn worth reliving. and thats the thing, i wouldn't want to go bakc to do anything differently, although it would be nice if things went differently i would just want to go back and relive somethings. there were some bonding moments that i've had with some people during the year that were really..... i donno, they weren't life changing or anything but i guess the word is surprising... but not in a bad, how-could-i-be-surprised way. in a more, i can't believe after four years some people are still around that i've never known really, or i can't believe after four years we're just now getting close and all it took was one crazy night in st. augustine. (brad <3).......
its weird, i mean perhaps not to you, oh trusty livejournal, but to me, being the person who has experienced 18 years of me........ it has been weird this past year. lots has happened, and not just becuase this summer has been the end to what has been the past 18 years, but just because its the end naturally. that doesn't make very much sense, but from what i have gathered from people, although this whole college thing seems like its happening awfuly rash in some cases and its very sad and hard to let go, for the most part, we need to.... because we have grown up
we are all, for the most part, who we are going to be for the rest of our lives
and in this past year, my senior year in highschool, i think i got to see a bunch of friends grow up, so yes, i would love to relive, well not love to relive senior year with all of the bullshit, with all of the exams in the end, with all of the bunton, cause i've learned a lot this past year and savoring every bit of still being the same person i had been for 18 years seems a lot better to me now, then it was when i was that person...
... anyway, tonight hopefullly i'll go out, i have been to gainesville like five times and now i'm ready to stay for good, i really enjoy my new home
but first, party
on a side note completely unrelated to any coherent thought i was trying to construct a few minutes ago... i am at my grandmothers house, and she is pretty cool... i feel like the narrator in Middlesex who only finds out her/his entire story at the very end... theres so much that i didn't know and am just now finding out... not that this is the end for anyone, but........ well who knows....... i dig my grandmother, thats all
anyway, although the ride down there was very eventful and very fun i an not imagine for the life of me what fun was had besides we played a fun game. perhaps going to bed at four am is not the best way to ensure the longivity of my short term or long term memory for that matter.
i do remember though on the way back thinking about whether or not i would redo my senior year in highschool. the idea just came to me as i was sitting in the back seat and i realized. i would, definatley without a doubt redo my senior year in highschool
but not because i would like to do things differently
... its a weird thought so i mean i'm still pretty much in shock that i just randomly said it then realized how exactly true it was....
but there were a lot of quintessential things that happened this year. well not quintessential but i'd say pretty damn worth reliving. and thats the thing, i wouldn't want to go bakc to do anything differently, although it would be nice if things went differently i would just want to go back and relive somethings. there were some bonding moments that i've had with some people during the year that were really..... i donno, they weren't life changing or anything but i guess the word is surprising... but not in a bad, how-could-i-be-surprised way. in a more, i can't believe after four years some people are still around that i've never known really, or i can't believe after four years we're just now getting close and all it took was one crazy night in st. augustine. (brad <3).......
its weird, i mean perhaps not to you, oh trusty livejournal, but to me, being the person who has experienced 18 years of me........ it has been weird this past year. lots has happened, and not just becuase this summer has been the end to what has been the past 18 years, but just because its the end naturally. that doesn't make very much sense, but from what i have gathered from people, although this whole college thing seems like its happening awfuly rash in some cases and its very sad and hard to let go, for the most part, we need to.... because we have grown up
we are all, for the most part, who we are going to be for the rest of our lives
and in this past year, my senior year in highschool, i think i got to see a bunch of friends grow up, so yes, i would love to relive, well not love to relive senior year with all of the bullshit, with all of the exams in the end, with all of the bunton, cause i've learned a lot this past year and savoring every bit of still being the same person i had been for 18 years seems a lot better to me now, then it was when i was that person...
... anyway, tonight hopefullly i'll go out, i have been to gainesville like five times and now i'm ready to stay for good, i really enjoy my new home
but first, party
on a side note completely unrelated to any coherent thought i was trying to construct a few minutes ago... i am at my grandmothers house, and she is pretty cool... i feel like the narrator in Middlesex who only finds out her/his entire story at the very end... theres so much that i didn't know and am just now finding out... not that this is the end for anyone, but........ well who knows....... i dig my grandmother, thats all