who knows
i came to a conclusion today while i was spending a painful 2 hours allowing myself to be tortured in the ortho chair (it was a nice sort of torture tho...the kind that means- in getting my braces off-FACE!) anyway...i figured that i am really not sure about anything at all. like i just dont know. its a scary feeling...i dont know what to do about classes, i dont know my rotations in vball, i dont know what do do about certain (what shall we call them)issues that have been on my mind, i dont know if i should call my old friends, i dont know what homework i cna a can not skive off, i dont know which cd to listen to when i go running (see previous entry) or whether or not to get an ipod adds a whole new i dont kno, i dont know what to talk about adn what not to sometimes and i really dont know which flavor of otter pop to choose right now (probably the toughest choice of all). i really am not sure if i shoudl be putting this all in to words...im leaning towards no, but i just dont kno.
i think i should relax and let things happen as they will but i also dont like the idea of not being in control (even tho in reality im not). not good. very bad. stress. i dunno (ahhhhhhh). i hope that if i just let go a little and had some faith in (the very controversial) power of destiny things wouldnt necessarily fall apart...but i just dont know.
(not to depress any of you or anything...if this does please comment to me and i'll stop...im not quite sure how much youre supposed to tell in these things...)
i think i should relax and let things happen as they will but i also dont like the idea of not being in control (even tho in reality im not). not good. very bad. stress. i dunno (ahhhhhhh). i hope that if i just let go a little and had some faith in (the very controversial) power of destiny things wouldnt necessarily fall apart...but i just dont know.
(not to depress any of you or anything...if this does please comment to me and i'll stop...im not quite sure how much youre supposed to tell in these things...)