ah well...
well....Ed is doin better...so thats good i guess...
work is goin really really good...i been makin pretty good money which means ill have plenty enough for spring break and extra to visit...
ive finally gotten past the whole "cryin every night" thing...now i am just sad...sad because at night i of course cannot sleep and everyone else is asleep and i am all alone...i have no one to talk to because they are either out or sleeping because they have school...so it gets really lonely...and im starting to go crazy from bein stuck here everyday with these people....my brother is an ass hole and everytime i try to go somewhere i always get tag alongs...and if i say they cant go then i am "bein mean"...like the other night i was extrememly bored and i was on th phone with emil and i decided to go take a ride to the mall by myself...well when i got back everyone was like o where were you....and i told them i went to the mall...and they were like o thanks for askin if we wanted to go....if i wanted them to go with me i would have asked them to...i like to get away from these people and just listen to music and just drive....it relaxes me...
today Lisa is in a pissy mood...and i dont know why...
i havent been feelin well lately...i been gettin weird pains in my head...i mean they are headaches but different kinds...and the other night i couldnt go to sleep cuz it felt like someone was stabbing the inside of my ear n the right side of my head was hurting so bad...before the only thing that would help me sleep was excedrin PM...and now that doesnt really help anymore...so i dont know what to do....i still havent received the release forms from the doctors office so i cant go to the doctor yet...i hate goin to the doctor anyway...i hate bein tested like im a fuckin animal...there is no point in goin anyway because ive tried a million different medicines and none of them help...and everytime i get on the phone with Ed all i hear is "the disease this" and "the disease that"....its not a fuckin disease get over it!...i swear if one more person talks about it im goin to shoot myself...im still fully functional...so fuckin get over it already...im so tired of it you cant even imagine...
i feel bad for actin like an ass hole to you guys sometimes but i cant help it...im happy that yall are makin new friends and stuff but im so jealous that yall are out havin fun with other people...it used to be us all the time together havin fun...now...its yall havin fun and me feelin like a huge loser with no friends.....i never thought the day would come when heather clark had no friends to hang out with...i mean i ALWAYS had someone to hangout with or talk to...now i dont....its absolutely miserable and i hate it here...its been 38 days....and im ready to explode..
work is goin really really good...i been makin pretty good money which means ill have plenty enough for spring break and extra to visit...
ive finally gotten past the whole "cryin every night" thing...now i am just sad...sad because at night i of course cannot sleep and everyone else is asleep and i am all alone...i have no one to talk to because they are either out or sleeping because they have school...so it gets really lonely...and im starting to go crazy from bein stuck here everyday with these people....my brother is an ass hole and everytime i try to go somewhere i always get tag alongs...and if i say they cant go then i am "bein mean"...like the other night i was extrememly bored and i was on th phone with emil and i decided to go take a ride to the mall by myself...well when i got back everyone was like o where were you....and i told them i went to the mall...and they were like o thanks for askin if we wanted to go....if i wanted them to go with me i would have asked them to...i like to get away from these people and just listen to music and just drive....it relaxes me...
today Lisa is in a pissy mood...and i dont know why...
i havent been feelin well lately...i been gettin weird pains in my head...i mean they are headaches but different kinds...and the other night i couldnt go to sleep cuz it felt like someone was stabbing the inside of my ear n the right side of my head was hurting so bad...before the only thing that would help me sleep was excedrin PM...and now that doesnt really help anymore...so i dont know what to do....i still havent received the release forms from the doctors office so i cant go to the doctor yet...i hate goin to the doctor anyway...i hate bein tested like im a fuckin animal...there is no point in goin anyway because ive tried a million different medicines and none of them help...and everytime i get on the phone with Ed all i hear is "the disease this" and "the disease that"....its not a fuckin disease get over it!...i swear if one more person talks about it im goin to shoot myself...im still fully functional...so fuckin get over it already...im so tired of it you cant even imagine...
i feel bad for actin like an ass hole to you guys sometimes but i cant help it...im happy that yall are makin new friends and stuff but im so jealous that yall are out havin fun with other people...it used to be us all the time together havin fun...now...its yall havin fun and me feelin like a huge loser with no friends.....i never thought the day would come when heather clark had no friends to hang out with...i mean i ALWAYS had someone to hangout with or talk to...now i dont....its absolutely miserable and i hate it here...its been 38 days....and im ready to explode..