love and life
I love him soo much. But he doesnt know it. when i think of him and her together...its like stabbing a million needles in my heart. i know that i may never get him back...but all i can do is hope. when i'm in his arms the whole world is put on hold and i feel so protected and loved. when his lips would touch mine...OMG...it feels so right. its soo hard to describe how i feel. only if he knew and opened his eyes and maybe saw what was in front of him....he would realize what he could have with me or would have had.
my life is falling apart, right in front of my eyes. everything i know is fading away. i'm losing friendships, i'm even losing my family. i dont know what has gotten into me lately. i just feel so alone sometimes, i dont know how to change it or i would. i cry every night... sometimes i'm so scared to cry cause i know i wouldnt be able to stop. i feel like i'm a failure sometimes, i always let my mom down, i feel like i'm never good enough for them. i'm not good in school, i mean i use to try so hard i relly did but it never helped my grades, so i gave up on trying. i dont know what to do.
i miss my sister so much, why did she have to kill herself....i know its been about 10 months since it all happend...but i miss her soo much.
my life is falling apart, right in front of my eyes. everything i know is fading away. i'm losing friendships, i'm even losing my family. i dont know what has gotten into me lately. i just feel so alone sometimes, i dont know how to change it or i would. i cry every night... sometimes i'm so scared to cry cause i know i wouldnt be able to stop. i feel like i'm a failure sometimes, i always let my mom down, i feel like i'm never good enough for them. i'm not good in school, i mean i use to try so hard i relly did but it never helped my grades, so i gave up on trying. i dont know what to do.
i miss my sister so much, why did she have to kill herself....i know its been about 10 months since it all happend...but i miss her soo much.