life goes on without you

[mylifestory13]

So for the past few hours I have been thinking, pondering rather, about everything that has gone on. It's really interesting actually, I have had feelings for this person for so long now and it's funny how I never said anything about it. I get so depressed and I upset myself about this one person even after so long that I've tried to forget them. My New Year's resolution was to sort of erase everything that brings me down and to just go on with my friends being happy and experiencing things I've never done before. I don't really know why this has just hit me at this very moment in time, but I started to think about that one person again. It's been what seems like forever that I've mentioned them and talked to them. I began bringing myself down and exclaiming how I wasn't good enough and that is why I never got the chance I thought I deserved. So many good things have happened lately and just today I started reminding myself about this one failure I've had. I don't know why I can't be as outgoing when I like someone as I am with my friends. My friends tell me all the time I make them laugh and wihtout me things are boring which makes me extremely happy that I'm doing my job right. This year has been nuts. My friends and I all got our licenses, we're all growing up, getting cars, getting jobs, realizing what we want to do with out lives, and recently I've found out that I got Editor for the Yearbook. Yep, Rosie=Yearbook Editor of Photography and Art. So that is going to be fun. I'm guessing when I start deciding where I want to go to college it will be for producing, writing, photography, or maybe something else that hasn't hit my mind yet. Also, this summer is going to be packed with frequent trips to New York considering that is where I am looking to go to school. I guess this is when the bipolar part of me kicks in because while all of these exciting, thrilling, mind-boggling things are happening around me, I suddenly remind myself of someone who I never will be with and someone who stole my heart wihtout knowing. I guess that is something that always bothered me. I liked him for a while and I started to fall for him and I can't really explain why. I guess all you have to do is be nice, enjoy my company, have those amazing eyes (dammit those get me every time), and show me a fun time just to get me to like you. This time was different. I mean I liked this boy for all of those reasons but other than that I don't know. I've had my frequent come and go crushes but this one stuck and seems to be affecting me even now after i convinced myself I was over it.
So now I will digress and look at the bright side of things.
I'll be graduating soon.
The years are going by fast.
People are changing and so am I.
I'm shaping myself into who I want to be.
My family, for the most part, are in good health thanks to technological advances known as medicine.
I have the best of friends and I've also made a ton of new ones.
And I don't have much else to say but maybe I wil in a little while since I do not require sleep.
Love Rosie