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[mylifeisyou]

i always find it appropriate to write when listening to good music. i haven't written in this thing for so long because i always find myself getting stuck in between thoughts: something that never really occurred when i first got the invitation code to create an account from tiffany. i used to write about lauren like--well just like a young kid in love would write.. just as corny and idealistic as any other lovesick adolescent. it's been so long since i graduated high school.. and yet, just as my dad describes his youth, it seems like it was a few days ago. maybe just a week ago when i was driving around in stephen's s-10 or going to taco bell with andrew or giving jesús a ride home from school. in fact, i feel no different. i feel just like that 17-year old kid. just as scared and excited and naively optimistic. i hope i never lose that. and then, to contradict myself, moving to this new apartment made me feel as if i had aged those five years, maybe more. i'm slow and carrying mass amounts of junk really tires me out. i'm too young to be feeling like that.
i always used to wish for things. i still do to myself. i wish i could use film more often. i wish that i didn't have to wish and just do it. i wish that i life was a little easier. that i could find myself in an occupation that i could stay in for the rest of my adult life and be left with enough money to survive along the way. i wish i could travel every other month. i wish i could play the guitar and muster up enough courage to sing in front of people. i wish i could meet and hang out with all the famous people that i admire.



tell me this isn't one of the best things you've ever seen.