So you say you want a revolution...
Gah! Not one of my better days, one might say. Various troubles compounded by an insult the likes of which I have never received. Icky.
But that would be to ignore the good things that came out of this. The waters have cleared, and I've realigned myself. I miss the happy person I was last year, and this summer and semester have caught me napping and swamped me with other people's troubles on top of my own. It was partly my stupidity and partly my hero complex that made me shoulder all that unnecessary weight, which made me the emo and disgustingly depressed/cynical/assish individual most of you have had the misfortune to experience. Fuck that, fuck all that noise. I miss being lighthearted and spontaneous, I miss friends I have lost due to my dim aura.
The answer is obvious, but I was too much of a dullard to figure it out on my own. For that, I feel ashamed, and immature. But for my friends, who have been there to help me--and in particular Nomi, who flipped a dusty switch in my brain--I thank you all.
So, in conclusion, I'm starting a revolution. This break, I'm going to place myself back in the spiritual balance I once had, and after that, all this gloom will disappear. I will enjoy my days, like I used to. And so will all of you. I'm tired of my friends walking around like joyless zombies, and I will damned if any of you drown in sorrow in my presence. None of you should be feeling like this, not a single damn one of you. We are all happy people at heart, we shouldn't let insignificant worries turn us into fucking emo sloths.
But that would be to ignore the good things that came out of this. The waters have cleared, and I've realigned myself. I miss the happy person I was last year, and this summer and semester have caught me napping and swamped me with other people's troubles on top of my own. It was partly my stupidity and partly my hero complex that made me shoulder all that unnecessary weight, which made me the emo and disgustingly depressed/cynical/assish individual most of you have had the misfortune to experience. Fuck that, fuck all that noise. I miss being lighthearted and spontaneous, I miss friends I have lost due to my dim aura.
The answer is obvious, but I was too much of a dullard to figure it out on my own. For that, I feel ashamed, and immature. But for my friends, who have been there to help me--and in particular Nomi, who flipped a dusty switch in my brain--I thank you all.
So, in conclusion, I'm starting a revolution. This break, I'm going to place myself back in the spiritual balance I once had, and after that, all this gloom will disappear. I will enjoy my days, like I used to. And so will all of you. I'm tired of my friends walking around like joyless zombies, and I will damned if any of you drown in sorrow in my presence. None of you should be feeling like this, not a single damn one of you. We are all happy people at heart, we shouldn't let insignificant worries turn us into fucking emo sloths.