Part.One ∣ An Idiot
“You realize that I am utterly in love with you and the idea of you leaving is like impending on insanity, right?”
“Changmin, let go.”
“I can’t and I won’t. Not after you’ve made every part of me want to hold onto you.”
“You’re an idiot.”
“Only because that’s the only way to get to you.”
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It was like she corrupted every bit of emotional control I had built up throughout the majority of my life - not even leaving a brick of the once great wall I had surrounded myself by. Everything she did when we were together…it kept pulling me in like a wave until I found myself in the middle of her affectionate ocean when I could barely swim myself.
It was crazy. I was crazy for letting my skeptical conscience slip. And I’m even more crazy now with the thought and evidence that she was about to leave. Mind you, I’m not mentally insane. I honestly don’t know how it really happened…but I became more emotionally dependent on her than I ever thought I’d be. No matter how much I thought about it…my escape route or solution to the recent chaos in my life…was her.