Feeling crappy, then lifted up!!!
I was freaking out online talking to my friend danielle and this was part of the convo:
DCB Romans 6 11 (1:47:02 PM): I would go to prayer jessie... try to find why you are feeling how you are today
Godsweirdo (1:47:11 PM): good idea
DCB Romans 6 11 (1:47:59 PM): I also think that what your mom said is affecting you... you really want to do something and she doesn't feel you are ready
DCB Romans 6 11 (1:49:14 PM): let me know how you are in a bit
Godsweirdo (1:49:26 PM): ok
Godsweirdo (2:02:33 PM): wow..
DCB Romans 6 11 (2:02:55 PM): what's up
Godsweirdo (2:03:47 PM): i just kneeled at my bed and cried and prayed and God said I was just afraid. I was afraid of my mom and afraid of this paper. I asked him what i should do ans he said, "repent and be with me for a while"
Godsweirdo (2:04:01 PM): so i did and cried...
Godsweirdo (2:04:16 PM): I asked him if i really was working too slowly and he said no.
Godsweirdo (2:04:28 PM): i was doing fine and the times i messed up were expected.
DCB Romans 6 11 (2:04:42 PM): well I'm glad to hear it
Godsweirdo (2:04:58 PM): then he smiled at me...i saw him smile at me and i cried harder
Godsweirdo (2:05:39 PM): i asked him why that meant so much to me and he said "I'm God Jess. you dont have to fear me anymore and you are free from judgement. you are free. me smiling at you is a sign of that freedom"
Godsweirdo (2:06:05 PM): "you made it through this trial (depression). you have reason to rejoice!"
Godsweirdo (2:06:34 PM): "I dont see your imperfections, I only see you. I see my son, his blood. I see my son in you"
Godsweirdo (2:06:40 PM): i just cried harder
Godsweirdo (2:06:54 PM): to hear God say, I see my son in you...
Godsweirdo (2:07:05 PM): then he said "and its only going to get better."
Godsweirdo (2:08:06 PM): wow...
yeah...that says it all. bye for now
Love
JESSIE
DCB Romans 6 11 (1:47:02 PM): I would go to prayer jessie... try to find why you are feeling how you are today
Godsweirdo (1:47:11 PM): good idea
DCB Romans 6 11 (1:47:59 PM): I also think that what your mom said is affecting you... you really want to do something and she doesn't feel you are ready
DCB Romans 6 11 (1:49:14 PM): let me know how you are in a bit
Godsweirdo (1:49:26 PM): ok
Godsweirdo (2:02:33 PM): wow..
DCB Romans 6 11 (2:02:55 PM): what's up
Godsweirdo (2:03:47 PM): i just kneeled at my bed and cried and prayed and God said I was just afraid. I was afraid of my mom and afraid of this paper. I asked him what i should do ans he said, "repent and be with me for a while"
Godsweirdo (2:04:01 PM): so i did and cried...
Godsweirdo (2:04:16 PM): I asked him if i really was working too slowly and he said no.
Godsweirdo (2:04:28 PM): i was doing fine and the times i messed up were expected.
DCB Romans 6 11 (2:04:42 PM): well I'm glad to hear it
Godsweirdo (2:04:58 PM): then he smiled at me...i saw him smile at me and i cried harder
Godsweirdo (2:05:39 PM): i asked him why that meant so much to me and he said "I'm God Jess. you dont have to fear me anymore and you are free from judgement. you are free. me smiling at you is a sign of that freedom"
Godsweirdo (2:06:05 PM): "you made it through this trial (depression). you have reason to rejoice!"
Godsweirdo (2:06:34 PM): "I dont see your imperfections, I only see you. I see my son, his blood. I see my son in you"
Godsweirdo (2:06:40 PM): i just cried harder
Godsweirdo (2:06:54 PM): to hear God say, I see my son in you...
Godsweirdo (2:07:05 PM): then he said "and its only going to get better."
Godsweirdo (2:08:06 PM): wow...
yeah...that says it all. bye for now
Love
JESSIE