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soo thursday..the 25th i think it was i called him. for a lot of reaosns i guess but specifically to know what he wnated and for him to reassure me that things were the way we had them when we saw each other (my last entry) yea that last entry, hm idk its a while load of bullshit. i was totally decieved and didn't even know it. i cant wait to not be given up on and for someone not to take the easy way out of things when shit gets hard because that is what he did.yea it totally sucks so not him at all. things went so well when we saw each other..so i thought. i wish i saw this coming but the way we left off and him saying how much he wanted to be with me idk i guess i actually believed him..hahaha silly me.and you made a decesion dont forget, you got it but you cant have me too now. its one or the other...you cant have your cake and eat it too. ohh and just remember one thing, feelings dont just dissapear and evaporate...it takes time...a lot of time i reallly hope you realize that.and i hope you realize eventually that you did make a mistake you prob wont o well. time heals everything. i just hope your happy now.now that i dont have to wait anymore im going to go live my life, get over it more and more each day and be better off without him.
he broke my heart today
i dont know what to say
i cant feel a thing at all
i did not see it comin
now you just a man that got away
i look at the ground
and give the sky the middle finger
something inside said
"here's a day you should remember
so mark it on a wall"
<3
every inch of me is bruised