stressed zee fuck out.
UGH I know I said I would write after the holidays, but I have some stuff I need to vent about.
I feel like my family is just being ripped apart at the seems. It may look like a happy exterior, but beneath the surface there is tension and turmoil. I just want everyone to be happy and content with life, but its seems like no matter what I try and do to help, nothing works out the way I hope. The holidays aren't even helping. No one is laughing and hugging and sharing stories, its all gossip and whispers.
Its tough because I know I'm loved and I know I will always have someone who cares about me, but I'm such a giver and I'm wanting so much for others. I'm mainly talking about one person. I can't share who that person is. I wish I could make this person understand everything. I wish this person knew what priorities came first. God, I just want it to be like old times. When things didn't matter and all you did was play outside and eat junk food. Nothing in the entire world mattered.
Those times are forever gone. We have grown. Matured. Evolved, into young adults. Taken on full responsibilities. There is nothing anyone can do to change that.
I just hope for the best. I just hope you'll learn.
<3
I feel like my family is just being ripped apart at the seems. It may look like a happy exterior, but beneath the surface there is tension and turmoil. I just want everyone to be happy and content with life, but its seems like no matter what I try and do to help, nothing works out the way I hope. The holidays aren't even helping. No one is laughing and hugging and sharing stories, its all gossip and whispers.
Its tough because I know I'm loved and I know I will always have someone who cares about me, but I'm such a giver and I'm wanting so much for others. I'm mainly talking about one person. I can't share who that person is. I wish I could make this person understand everything. I wish this person knew what priorities came first. God, I just want it to be like old times. When things didn't matter and all you did was play outside and eat junk food. Nothing in the entire world mattered.
Those times are forever gone. We have grown. Matured. Evolved, into young adults. Taken on full responsibilities. There is nothing anyone can do to change that.
I just hope for the best. I just hope you'll learn.
<3