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i have come to realize that i have no one and that i am unbearable. it has been kind of nailed in today. "the worst part is theres no one else to blame." im completely lost. dont return my calls. dont even call. there is nothing to be worked out or negotiated with me, i have ruined it all. the fact that i want to be attached and have attachments are forever tormenting. i am a child. i dont think there is anything left for me. the only time i can account for being happy are the times i havent been myself.