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focusing on you. i think this is where that whole thing where if a boy doesnt like a girl the girl likes him more in exchange. i wouldnt say that ive expressed a love for you to you but the eagerness to fucking know you i have. i follow and follow you. you dont know but you are a major factor in if i eat, what i take, how i take it, what i want to do and how i want to do it and how i act. basically you control a lot of me. it has never been rejection of any sort but it has never really been open arms. well you contacted me the first time and then i guess you could say i took it from there. i really havent tried contacting you in the thought of seeming way to fucking desperate. i bring you up in conversations with people i hardly know. this is all the truth i dont think you will ever hear. theres more but the struggle always goes on.