Here is what has been happening...
I have realized that I haven't really updated much, and when I have updated, it isn't really about what is happening with me...i've been putting of off, bc i knonw that this is going to be long...so here it is...long overdue!
At the beginning of November, I went to a conference for BASIC, Brothers and Sisters in Christ, a club (state wide christian organization for college students) on campus that is also at other campuses around the state. a little history: I'm a Christian, about 4 years ago, I devoted my life to Christ, went on a mission trip, and knew that that for the rest of my life, i would be doing mission work. So i decided to go to school for psychology, and get a dree that can help so I could work in orphanages. Well, about a year ago, I got a call from some of the people that I met when I was doing mission work overseas, and they basically told me that they want me to work for them! HOLY COW, PRAISE GOD because their ministry is EXACTLY what I was going to school for...PLUS, they didn't care what kind of degree I wanted...so for about the last 9 months or so, I strayed. strayed FAR from what God wants me to be doing...i was drinking, having sex, swearing all the time, being mean to people(not intentionally, just wasn't thinking about my actions)...and it was horrible...I wanted to get back on track, I NEEDED to get back on track, I wanted to be myself again, and God wanted me back too.
So this conference...I went, and I got closer to God than I ever have before...close like I have always wanted to be! I was sick of my faith fluxuating, I either wanted to be flying high with God, or not Godly...even though, I knew i didn't want to be godly, that is just the opposite...anyway...at this conference, God touched my heart, and said "stace, I need you full time! don't fluxuate anymore! I love you, I forgive you for all the things that you have done...BECAUSE I LOVE YOU! come back to me, stay with me, and i will do amazing things in your life." Well, one of the first amazing things He did for me was to heal me of my fibromyalgia...a disorder that causes me to be in pain EVERYDAY! I had hard times getting out of bed even, not bc i was tired...bc i physically wasn't able to! I am supposed to live the REST of my life in pain...but God stopped that! I am sitting here right now without ANY PAIN! praise God! GOD WORKED IN ME! people saw God in me...I was a witness to others! to think of God choosing me, stacey craig, to use me to show and reveal himself to others, is an honor!
there is more...I was confused...i knew that God still wanted to me work with that ministry...but when? did He want me to go ahead and be SGA president, or to get the degree, which would take two more semesters, or transfer? there were all these different choices and decisions to make...so i prayed that God would reveal where he wanted me to go, and when! The conference was amazing...I finally got what God wanted me to get...how do I explain this...you can be baptized in the Holy Spirit, and then you recieve a gift of the Holy Spirit...there are a bunch of gifts, speaking in other tongues, become a healer, be a prohesy, all these different things...AND the gift of love. Well, i didn't know if God wanted me to be baptized in the holy spirit at that time...so I gave him the choice...if he wanted me to, then He would get my butt out of the chair, and send someone over to pray for me...well, he DID! I had gotten up, and emersed myself in a crowd of people who were being prayed for, and I said God, no one is praying for me yet, and if YOU want me to be baptized right now, then send someone over to me...i was crying, the holy spirit was in the room...it was earth shaking...well, someone came over to me, and asked me what I wanted them to pray for...and I said, whatever is in your heart, whatever God is telling you to pray, bc this moment, is given to God, I am not taking any control over it...and let me tell you...to let yourself let go of control is the most amazing feeling, you are literally at complete peace...it was awesome...so this girl started praying for me, and she was talkinga bout how I love people, no matter who they are, black, white, annoying as hell, ugly, fat, rapist, Hitler...I have a love for everyone, and it is hard to explain...that is my gift from the holy spirit...1st Corinthians 13:4-7 have always been my favorite verses, and these verses are about the gift of love! it is the only gift from the holy spirit that lasts for eternity...it is crazy, I understand how God loves EVERYONE of you, and how God wants you to believe in Him and trust Him, and wants YOU on His side...no matter what! I understand what He sees in you! For example, i mentioned Hitler...that man was a follower of the devil, he did horrible things to human beings, however, God still had a place for him in heaven, God still loved him...now did Hitler go to heaven? don't know, probably not, HOWEVER...only God knows what was in Hitlers heart, and God judges Hitler for what he did, but it all comes down to whether or not you recieve Jesus as your savior, bc He in all, did save you from Hell, he made a way for you to heaven by dying on that cross, he made it so that your sins could be forgiven...does that mean you can disobey God's word, and then just repent, and think that everything is ok, and do it again? no. You need...wait, I am getting off topic...my intent is to not preach to you, not trying to convert you to what I believe...I want to 1 tell you of what is happening in my life and 2, I want you to know how AWESOME and trustworthy God is...
so,
after the conference, a few days after, i was in the shower...praying (i know wierd), and I was once again thinking about all of my choices on what to do...and I thought, well maybe I should go and work for them next semester and put my degree on hold for like 15 years or so...lol...and then OMGosh...this was God telling me this...
ok...RA duty is over, finish writing everything tomorrow, or this weekend...there is still a lot more!
At the beginning of November, I went to a conference for BASIC, Brothers and Sisters in Christ, a club (state wide christian organization for college students) on campus that is also at other campuses around the state. a little history: I'm a Christian, about 4 years ago, I devoted my life to Christ, went on a mission trip, and knew that that for the rest of my life, i would be doing mission work. So i decided to go to school for psychology, and get a dree that can help so I could work in orphanages. Well, about a year ago, I got a call from some of the people that I met when I was doing mission work overseas, and they basically told me that they want me to work for them! HOLY COW, PRAISE GOD because their ministry is EXACTLY what I was going to school for...PLUS, they didn't care what kind of degree I wanted...so for about the last 9 months or so, I strayed. strayed FAR from what God wants me to be doing...i was drinking, having sex, swearing all the time, being mean to people(not intentionally, just wasn't thinking about my actions)...and it was horrible...I wanted to get back on track, I NEEDED to get back on track, I wanted to be myself again, and God wanted me back too.
So this conference...I went, and I got closer to God than I ever have before...close like I have always wanted to be! I was sick of my faith fluxuating, I either wanted to be flying high with God, or not Godly...even though, I knew i didn't want to be godly, that is just the opposite...anyway...at this conference, God touched my heart, and said "stace, I need you full time! don't fluxuate anymore! I love you, I forgive you for all the things that you have done...BECAUSE I LOVE YOU! come back to me, stay with me, and i will do amazing things in your life." Well, one of the first amazing things He did for me was to heal me of my fibromyalgia...a disorder that causes me to be in pain EVERYDAY! I had hard times getting out of bed even, not bc i was tired...bc i physically wasn't able to! I am supposed to live the REST of my life in pain...but God stopped that! I am sitting here right now without ANY PAIN! praise God! GOD WORKED IN ME! people saw God in me...I was a witness to others! to think of God choosing me, stacey craig, to use me to show and reveal himself to others, is an honor!
there is more...I was confused...i knew that God still wanted to me work with that ministry...but when? did He want me to go ahead and be SGA president, or to get the degree, which would take two more semesters, or transfer? there were all these different choices and decisions to make...so i prayed that God would reveal where he wanted me to go, and when! The conference was amazing...I finally got what God wanted me to get...how do I explain this...you can be baptized in the Holy Spirit, and then you recieve a gift of the Holy Spirit...there are a bunch of gifts, speaking in other tongues, become a healer, be a prohesy, all these different things...AND the gift of love. Well, i didn't know if God wanted me to be baptized in the holy spirit at that time...so I gave him the choice...if he wanted me to, then He would get my butt out of the chair, and send someone over to pray for me...well, he DID! I had gotten up, and emersed myself in a crowd of people who were being prayed for, and I said God, no one is praying for me yet, and if YOU want me to be baptized right now, then send someone over to me...i was crying, the holy spirit was in the room...it was earth shaking...well, someone came over to me, and asked me what I wanted them to pray for...and I said, whatever is in your heart, whatever God is telling you to pray, bc this moment, is given to God, I am not taking any control over it...and let me tell you...to let yourself let go of control is the most amazing feeling, you are literally at complete peace...it was awesome...so this girl started praying for me, and she was talkinga bout how I love people, no matter who they are, black, white, annoying as hell, ugly, fat, rapist, Hitler...I have a love for everyone, and it is hard to explain...that is my gift from the holy spirit...1st Corinthians 13:4-7 have always been my favorite verses, and these verses are about the gift of love! it is the only gift from the holy spirit that lasts for eternity...it is crazy, I understand how God loves EVERYONE of you, and how God wants you to believe in Him and trust Him, and wants YOU on His side...no matter what! I understand what He sees in you! For example, i mentioned Hitler...that man was a follower of the devil, he did horrible things to human beings, however, God still had a place for him in heaven, God still loved him...now did Hitler go to heaven? don't know, probably not, HOWEVER...only God knows what was in Hitlers heart, and God judges Hitler for what he did, but it all comes down to whether or not you recieve Jesus as your savior, bc He in all, did save you from Hell, he made a way for you to heaven by dying on that cross, he made it so that your sins could be forgiven...does that mean you can disobey God's word, and then just repent, and think that everything is ok, and do it again? no. You need...wait, I am getting off topic...my intent is to not preach to you, not trying to convert you to what I believe...I want to 1 tell you of what is happening in my life and 2, I want you to know how AWESOME and trustworthy God is...
so,
after the conference, a few days after, i was in the shower...praying (i know wierd), and I was once again thinking about all of my choices on what to do...and I thought, well maybe I should go and work for them next semester and put my degree on hold for like 15 years or so...lol...and then OMGosh...this was God telling me this...
ok...RA duty is over, finish writing everything tomorrow, or this weekend...there is still a lot more!