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Don't be scared to take a second for reflection,
to take a leave of absence, see what you're made of.
So I'm selfish, and you're sorry.
When I'm gone you'll be going nowhere fast.
So who's selfish, and who's sorry?
the music isn't loud enough. i need to not think. i need to lie on the grass and have the world stop. these words become so cliche and things are always going in circles.
how am i going to tell you to hold on and don't give up. don't lose faith. while i sit here and lose everything. i'm sorry, but i can't be strong right now. things are falling so fast, but that's the story of my life right?
i'm so fucking tired of feeling like this all the fucking time.
i hate losing faith in people. i hate how i've never been able to trust people and it's still the same. i hate how i can never find my home. i hate how i can't ever find genuine people. substances are only temporary.
i hate how i can't even explain what's been going on. like the pieces in my aren't together. i guess i just need someone to understand and i know everyone says they do, but everyone seems so fucking caught up in themselves that i just don't matter.
yes, i'm being selfish. and yes, i understand that people can't drop their world and tend to mine, but i just wish they won't stop pretending that that's what they'd do.
Hold your head high heavy heart.
So take a chance and make it big,
Cause it’s the last you’ll ever get.
If we don’t take it, when will we make it?
i don't know if i'm gonna transfer in another year. all these places are the same and all the people are the same and i probably won't ever find what i'm looking for in places like these but i just need constant change. i miss california. i don't really miss the people but i miss things there that were just part of me.
shopping. beaches. fucking warm weather. and i really really miss the shows.
i don't know where i'm going with any of this.
peace.
to take a leave of absence, see what you're made of.
So I'm selfish, and you're sorry.
When I'm gone you'll be going nowhere fast.
So who's selfish, and who's sorry?
the music isn't loud enough. i need to not think. i need to lie on the grass and have the world stop. these words become so cliche and things are always going in circles.
how am i going to tell you to hold on and don't give up. don't lose faith. while i sit here and lose everything. i'm sorry, but i can't be strong right now. things are falling so fast, but that's the story of my life right?
i'm so fucking tired of feeling like this all the fucking time.
i hate losing faith in people. i hate how i've never been able to trust people and it's still the same. i hate how i can never find my home. i hate how i can't ever find genuine people. substances are only temporary.
i hate how i can't even explain what's been going on. like the pieces in my aren't together. i guess i just need someone to understand and i know everyone says they do, but everyone seems so fucking caught up in themselves that i just don't matter.
yes, i'm being selfish. and yes, i understand that people can't drop their world and tend to mine, but i just wish they won't stop pretending that that's what they'd do.
Hold your head high heavy heart.
So take a chance and make it big,
Cause it’s the last you’ll ever get.
If we don’t take it, when will we make it?
i don't know if i'm gonna transfer in another year. all these places are the same and all the people are the same and i probably won't ever find what i'm looking for in places like these but i just need constant change. i miss california. i don't really miss the people but i miss things there that were just part of me.
shopping. beaches. fucking warm weather. and i really really miss the shows.
i don't know where i'm going with any of this.
peace.