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nobody ever said starting over was easy. i don't know why i continue to have expectations when i know they won't be met. i feel the start of 2005 has put me back in confusion. the past three weeks, i have been thinking about what i've learned and what i can bring into the new year, and now. i don't know.
this entry might be a little confusing, so i appologize.
it's funny how when you leave someplace, there's nothing people can do but move on. but the thing is, when you're back, it's not like they can stop their lives to catch you up. and i guess that's just how everything is now. things in san marino are the same. the people are still the same, the cliques and exclusiveness are still strong, then i come back here, and it's like i never really existed.
i know i'm being a little selfish, but i just wanted to come back to what i considered my home and feel like nothing's changed. god, i sound like such a little fucking whatever.
i'm going to try to be a little more outgoing in my classes this semester.
fuck. i can't even do this right now.
this entry might be a little confusing, so i appologize.
it's funny how when you leave someplace, there's nothing people can do but move on. but the thing is, when you're back, it's not like they can stop their lives to catch you up. and i guess that's just how everything is now. things in san marino are the same. the people are still the same, the cliques and exclusiveness are still strong, then i come back here, and it's like i never really existed.
i know i'm being a little selfish, but i just wanted to come back to what i considered my home and feel like nothing's changed. god, i sound like such a little fucking whatever.
i'm going to try to be a little more outgoing in my classes this semester.
fuck. i can't even do this right now.