dreamtime!!
so...last last night..i had a really weird dream...
I dreamed last last night that it was the Virgin Festival. For some STRANGE reason, I was supposed to replace the lead singer of BIlly Talent for just this one show. I dont know WHY he couldn't make it? maybe i won a contest...I DONT KNOW!! There were 2 other guys going on stage with me but I don't remember who they were..like if they were the original members or not. Anyways, we were all really nervous because the audience was huge. For some reason it was an indoor stadium concert. We finally went up on stage and the crowd was screaming. There were lights in my face and I couldn't erally see anything. The band starts playing the intro to a song (I can't remember which one! Falling Leaves..?) and the vocals are supposed to kick in, but I just blanked out. I couldn't remember the lyrics OR the tune, and the guitarist who was on my right side looks at me like i should DO something. The crowd, in the meantime, is showing great displeasure and start yelling. The spotlight was on me, andI was shocked/hella embarassed, so I just kind of hum...not confidently...without any words...trying to remember the tune--disastrous! I finally get the hang of it and it all comes to me and the crowd starts getting into it. I feed off of the crowd's energy and kind of forget that I'm in front of thousands of people. I get into the music, and the environment was surreal. I was singing, closing my eyes to feel the energy and the music, playing with the microphone stand, even slightly "dancing" hahaha--I put on a GREAT show! (emphasize the great!)My singing was powerful and all in tune (not like in real life!!!) and it was such a great feeling. However, during the last song, I ended the vocals prematurely and the guitarist looks at me again. I ended it already, so I couldn't really do anything, and the band had to impromptu-ly end without me. I'm not sure if the fans noticed or not, but after the show I was in high spirits! except for the screwing up big-time...twice...I apologized to the band for my messups and they forgave me saying I didn't REALLY know the songs to begin with, so I did an OK job. I thought about it and realized that I didn't LOVE billy talent or even really like them, so I excused myself for potentially ruining the show. I felt confident up on the stage and lost all my sense of self to the music and the people. I didn't care about what people thought of me. It was refreshing, and I felt a sense of freedom as well as power and confdence. It seemed like a short and long show cuz I guess it's because I only know their released songs so that's all I would know in my dream..but it seemed to last a lifetime up there. And now...I have Billy Talent stuck in my head!!! ><
anyways...so what did i learn from this dream? what was my subconsciousness trying to tell me?!
well it can probably be 1 of many choices...
1. i am extremely talented and am able to entertain! hahaha....and i actually have a great voice that i haven't found yet!
it could be my subconcious telling me that i should persue a career in singing...and fronting billy talent...or..just a band. cuz hey, a lot of lead singers aren't that great live right?! and then as time goes on...they get better and improve! i mean, chester wasn't very good live in the beginning but he's improved LOTS upon lots. and i'm not trying to PROVE i can sing...hahaaha.
2. i actually like billy talent?! subconsciously...=O
3. i can't WAIT for virgin festival
4. even if i screw up...i shouldn't be too embarassed and get over it, and everything will be great. don't dwell on it and let it become a part of you. even if it seems like the "fans" hate you or whatever, they don't actually. they'll get over it too. and everyone gets embarassed. nobody's perfect. mess-ups are a part of life that you learn your mistakes from. if worst comes to worse make a joke out of it?
5. kind of a continuation of 4...even if you think people are laughing at you or making fun of you or yelling with displeasure at you...shake it off and always be yourself. don't be so shy and put on a mask in front of crowds. big groups of people, especially people you don't know WILL be judging you...but if you give up, or let them change or bother who you are...things will not end well. you won't be satisfied with who you are, and being fake can only get you so far. if they don't like you for who you are...well...you're losing fans..but i think you kind of gain different fans as well. and you always have diehard fans that will go through anything with you. things will go well. and...
6. remember/dwell on the GOOD stuff that happens and forget the bad. it's over anyways. what's done is done. why not be happy with what you've accomplished?
i actually CAN expand 4+5, but...i wont..
its a pretty long read as it is.
and...although i've spent time procrastinating thinking of these reasons...well the last 3 at least...those "life lessons", i know they're true and that i should totally just go for it...but its definitely easier said than done!
THANKS SUBCONSCIOUS!!
love, ME
I dreamed last last night that it was the Virgin Festival. For some STRANGE reason, I was supposed to replace the lead singer of BIlly Talent for just this one show. I dont know WHY he couldn't make it? maybe i won a contest...I DONT KNOW!! There were 2 other guys going on stage with me but I don't remember who they were..like if they were the original members or not. Anyways, we were all really nervous because the audience was huge. For some reason it was an indoor stadium concert. We finally went up on stage and the crowd was screaming. There were lights in my face and I couldn't erally see anything. The band starts playing the intro to a song (I can't remember which one! Falling Leaves..?) and the vocals are supposed to kick in, but I just blanked out. I couldn't remember the lyrics OR the tune, and the guitarist who was on my right side looks at me like i should DO something. The crowd, in the meantime, is showing great displeasure and start yelling. The spotlight was on me, andI was shocked/hella embarassed, so I just kind of hum...not confidently...without any words...trying to remember the tune--disastrous! I finally get the hang of it and it all comes to me and the crowd starts getting into it. I feed off of the crowd's energy and kind of forget that I'm in front of thousands of people. I get into the music, and the environment was surreal. I was singing, closing my eyes to feel the energy and the music, playing with the microphone stand, even slightly "dancing" hahaha--I put on a GREAT show! (emphasize the great!)My singing was powerful and all in tune (not like in real life!!!) and it was such a great feeling. However, during the last song, I ended the vocals prematurely and the guitarist looks at me again. I ended it already, so I couldn't really do anything, and the band had to impromptu-ly end without me. I'm not sure if the fans noticed or not, but after the show I was in high spirits! except for the screwing up big-time...twice...I apologized to the band for my messups and they forgave me saying I didn't REALLY know the songs to begin with, so I did an OK job. I thought about it and realized that I didn't LOVE billy talent or even really like them, so I excused myself for potentially ruining the show. I felt confident up on the stage and lost all my sense of self to the music and the people. I didn't care about what people thought of me. It was refreshing, and I felt a sense of freedom as well as power and confdence. It seemed like a short and long show cuz I guess it's because I only know their released songs so that's all I would know in my dream..but it seemed to last a lifetime up there. And now...I have Billy Talent stuck in my head!!! ><
anyways...so what did i learn from this dream? what was my subconsciousness trying to tell me?!
well it can probably be 1 of many choices...
1. i am extremely talented and am able to entertain! hahaha....and i actually have a great voice that i haven't found yet!
it could be my subconcious telling me that i should persue a career in singing...and fronting billy talent...or..just a band. cuz hey, a lot of lead singers aren't that great live right?! and then as time goes on...they get better and improve! i mean, chester wasn't very good live in the beginning but he's improved LOTS upon lots. and i'm not trying to PROVE i can sing...hahaaha.
2. i actually like billy talent?! subconsciously...=O
3. i can't WAIT for virgin festival
4. even if i screw up...i shouldn't be too embarassed and get over it, and everything will be great. don't dwell on it and let it become a part of you. even if it seems like the "fans" hate you or whatever, they don't actually. they'll get over it too. and everyone gets embarassed. nobody's perfect. mess-ups are a part of life that you learn your mistakes from. if worst comes to worse make a joke out of it?
5. kind of a continuation of 4...even if you think people are laughing at you or making fun of you or yelling with displeasure at you...shake it off and always be yourself. don't be so shy and put on a mask in front of crowds. big groups of people, especially people you don't know WILL be judging you...but if you give up, or let them change or bother who you are...things will not end well. you won't be satisfied with who you are, and being fake can only get you so far. if they don't like you for who you are...well...you're losing fans..but i think you kind of gain different fans as well. and you always have diehard fans that will go through anything with you. things will go well. and...
6. remember/dwell on the GOOD stuff that happens and forget the bad. it's over anyways. what's done is done. why not be happy with what you've accomplished?
i actually CAN expand 4+5, but...i wont..
its a pretty long read as it is.
and...although i've spent time procrastinating thinking of these reasons...well the last 3 at least...those "life lessons", i know they're true and that i should totally just go for it...but its definitely easier said than done!
THANKS SUBCONSCIOUS!!
love, ME