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oh me
oh me
well well well
speechless i am
to you again
you were my best friend
we were friends when we were little
i came to your house and ate pizza
me and china at one of your birthday things
i remember exactly what i was wearing
jeans i had gotten for christmas
this shirt that was too big something abput a biological clock running out
and these black lei shoes i loved
and i got sick and came home and threw up
back then we weren't friends really
i don't even know how we knew each other then
we were in totally different sections at school
remember the m&m's and the little rascals or whatever
and i guess 6th and 7th grade we didn't talk
because if you will remember then
you were too cool for me
yeah i was a loser
i was ugly
forgive me
i admit that
but anyways
one day in 8th grade
I called you
for some reason
told you some lame story about a guy
and you were really interested in it
i remember i was sitting downstairs on that brick harth or whatever
and i walked out the back door and i was pacing back there
and i remember i cracked up
because you were telling me about your daddy saying 'those people' are double dipped
and i thought it was hilarious
we were probably on the phone for an hour
and after that we were inseperable
from then on out we stuck together
best friends
i was so glad we were
i had fun with you
that whole summer after 8th grade
we spent almost every night together
either at your house or mine
sneaking 'poeple' over
playing truth or dare
talks on my front porch about the future and how we would be in the future
and talks on my back porch too
those dumb videos
that i love to watch
that make me laug hso hard
we were so dumb
and we didn't care
we didn't have a care in the world about anyone
we enjoyed each others company
we weren't worried about whatevery one else thought
or where thc cool people were
we weren't so worried about how we looked
or what color our hair was
we were just US
lauren and laura lee
best friends
forever
until we grew up and became pharmasists together
ahhh
and how things changed
we became big shophomores
and oh how things changes
there is more to it than you know
yes i started hanging out with older people
you found a new friend
we grew apart
yes
blame me for all of it
yes i take the blame for most of it
but not all of it
because you place the blame on me for
not calling
not asking you to come over
not inviting you
which is not ALL my responsiblilty
half of that is yours
i feel liek our friendship is one sided
when it doesn't have to be
here lately we've been talking more than we have in the past month
who's done the calling?
who's wrote you on msn?
who came over to your house?
and who called you and asked if it was okay?
i did
laura lee i love you
i think you are beautiful
i promise you i did
yeah i have been exposed to more than you
partly because of my choices
and partly because of my family
which i didn't chose
but i am glad for all of that
from which i have learned
withe good things
or things
things not to do
and things to do
and people to be like
and people not to be like
yeah i've said you were childish
and immature
i don't deny it
you've said things about me too
people have told me
promise
but i kept it under my tougne
other than the times you called me names a long time ago
even if you say you were kidding
it doesn't make it any better than if you weren't
although i forgive you
because people say things they don't mean
and it's not worth fighting over
and because i knew you were just mad
and i ddin't want to cause an arguement
i want things to be okay
i want so bad for things to be the way they used to be
even that night when we called dalton
and had that whispery voice
and he thought it was tabitha
that was hilarious
i'm sure i laughed so hard my stomach hurt
because we always did that
we had fun no matter what we were doing
but like remmeber when i got my prom dress
and after i wore it to prom
you said " i didn't really like your prom dress"
and that car you are driving
i said i wanted it
and that's fine you got it that wasn't the thing
it's that when is aid i liked it you said
"i really couldn't see you driving that care"
and then got it
and when people would compliment me
you would say "ahh..i don't really like (what ever it was) but it's okay"
and i was always like
oh laura lee your hair looks pretty
oh i like that shirt
cute shoes
whatever
i was nice
okay i've got all that
now lets put it behind us
call me
i will answer i promise
i will return your call if i don't get it
i will call you
we can't stop our friendship here
i miss it
i miss me and you
and our stupid silly goofy night
of stupid silly goofy stuff we did
which was basically nothing
we need to be more open and honest with each other
i will try to be easy to talk to
and make it easier for you to talk to me
and for me to talk to you
i will try if you will
you said on the internet the other night
how we both need to put some effort into it
okay
let's do it
please
i know that sounds bad or whatever
but i'm not trying to be funny
i am just trying to say that
i am sorry
for everything
the thing's i've said and done
and for the things i haven't said
and for not being as open as i should have
and for making you think something that was false
i am sorry for not being a best friend
i'd like to earn that title back
but a friendship can not work if it is one sided
it is a relationship
which obviously i am not very good at
if you'll look at my past records
but i think if i try and you try
this will all be okay
yeah you can be a baby and chilshish
and immature
and yes so can i
like the other night at your house
when we wrote derek wise
yeah that was us derek if your reading this
that was immature i suppose
but it was fun
we all still have a little kid inside of us
i like to be silly
but just liek you getting so made over that
that was retarded
don't stress over little things like that
that was not a big deal
sorry i wrote all of this on here
there was really no one to talk to
about this
and i called you
you didn't answer
and i don't really know what all i said on that voicemail
because i was just talking out of my ass
but this was my alternative
so just call me either after you read this or after you get that voicemail i guess
i never thought you and i would end up like this
it's not supposed to be this way
and it should have never happened
but if things turn out okay and we can work this out
then maybe it was supposed to happen
maybe it was a good thing
because it will have taught us alot
about each other
and if how much we can overcome
and if we are truly best friends
i don't know
it's 3:05 in the morning
and i am wide awake
but only because i am just thinking about all of this
and i know half of this sounds gay
it sounds like we were dating or something
sorry
laugh
laugh it up
but i am tired of the way things are
and if this is what i have to do to make them different
than so be it
you will learn that the people you love will hurt you the most
worse than anyone else that says bad things about you
or makes fun of you or whatever the case you may be
your family and true friends or boyfriends/girlfriends will hurt you the most
i am sorry i made you hurt
i am sorry you made me hurt
and i am sorry this all ever happened
i am sorry
i am sorry
lauren mykenzi armstrong
oh me
well well well
speechless i am
to you again
you were my best friend
we were friends when we were little
i came to your house and ate pizza
me and china at one of your birthday things
i remember exactly what i was wearing
jeans i had gotten for christmas
this shirt that was too big something abput a biological clock running out
and these black lei shoes i loved
and i got sick and came home and threw up
back then we weren't friends really
i don't even know how we knew each other then
we were in totally different sections at school
remember the m&m's and the little rascals or whatever
and i guess 6th and 7th grade we didn't talk
because if you will remember then
you were too cool for me
yeah i was a loser
i was ugly
forgive me
i admit that
but anyways
one day in 8th grade
I called you
for some reason
told you some lame story about a guy
and you were really interested in it
i remember i was sitting downstairs on that brick harth or whatever
and i walked out the back door and i was pacing back there
and i remember i cracked up
because you were telling me about your daddy saying 'those people' are double dipped
and i thought it was hilarious
we were probably on the phone for an hour
and after that we were inseperable
from then on out we stuck together
best friends
i was so glad we were
i had fun with you
that whole summer after 8th grade
we spent almost every night together
either at your house or mine
sneaking 'poeple' over
playing truth or dare
talks on my front porch about the future and how we would be in the future
and talks on my back porch too
those dumb videos
that i love to watch
that make me laug hso hard
we were so dumb
and we didn't care
we didn't have a care in the world about anyone
we enjoyed each others company
we weren't worried about whatevery one else thought
or where thc cool people were
we weren't so worried about how we looked
or what color our hair was
we were just US
lauren and laura lee
best friends
forever
until we grew up and became pharmasists together
ahhh
and how things changed
we became big shophomores
and oh how things changes
there is more to it than you know
yes i started hanging out with older people
you found a new friend
we grew apart
yes
blame me for all of it
yes i take the blame for most of it
but not all of it
because you place the blame on me for
not calling
not asking you to come over
not inviting you
which is not ALL my responsiblilty
half of that is yours
i feel liek our friendship is one sided
when it doesn't have to be
here lately we've been talking more than we have in the past month
who's done the calling?
who's wrote you on msn?
who came over to your house?
and who called you and asked if it was okay?
i did
laura lee i love you
i think you are beautiful
i promise you i did
yeah i have been exposed to more than you
partly because of my choices
and partly because of my family
which i didn't chose
but i am glad for all of that
from which i have learned
withe good things
or things
things not to do
and things to do
and people to be like
and people not to be like
yeah i've said you were childish
and immature
i don't deny it
you've said things about me too
people have told me
promise
but i kept it under my tougne
other than the times you called me names a long time ago
even if you say you were kidding
it doesn't make it any better than if you weren't
although i forgive you
because people say things they don't mean
and it's not worth fighting over
and because i knew you were just mad
and i ddin't want to cause an arguement
i want things to be okay
i want so bad for things to be the way they used to be
even that night when we called dalton
and had that whispery voice
and he thought it was tabitha
that was hilarious
i'm sure i laughed so hard my stomach hurt
because we always did that
we had fun no matter what we were doing
but like remmeber when i got my prom dress
and after i wore it to prom
you said " i didn't really like your prom dress"
and that car you are driving
i said i wanted it
and that's fine you got it that wasn't the thing
it's that when is aid i liked it you said
"i really couldn't see you driving that care"
and then got it
and when people would compliment me
you would say "ahh..i don't really like (what ever it was) but it's okay"
and i was always like
oh laura lee your hair looks pretty
oh i like that shirt
cute shoes
whatever
i was nice
okay i've got all that
now lets put it behind us
call me
i will answer i promise
i will return your call if i don't get it
i will call you
we can't stop our friendship here
i miss it
i miss me and you
and our stupid silly goofy night
of stupid silly goofy stuff we did
which was basically nothing
we need to be more open and honest with each other
i will try to be easy to talk to
and make it easier for you to talk to me
and for me to talk to you
i will try if you will
you said on the internet the other night
how we both need to put some effort into it
okay
let's do it
please
i know that sounds bad or whatever
but i'm not trying to be funny
i am just trying to say that
i am sorry
for everything
the thing's i've said and done
and for the things i haven't said
and for not being as open as i should have
and for making you think something that was false
i am sorry for not being a best friend
i'd like to earn that title back
but a friendship can not work if it is one sided
it is a relationship
which obviously i am not very good at
if you'll look at my past records
but i think if i try and you try
this will all be okay
yeah you can be a baby and chilshish
and immature
and yes so can i
like the other night at your house
when we wrote derek wise
yeah that was us derek if your reading this
that was immature i suppose
but it was fun
we all still have a little kid inside of us
i like to be silly
but just liek you getting so made over that
that was retarded
don't stress over little things like that
that was not a big deal
sorry i wrote all of this on here
there was really no one to talk to
about this
and i called you
you didn't answer
and i don't really know what all i said on that voicemail
because i was just talking out of my ass
but this was my alternative
so just call me either after you read this or after you get that voicemail i guess
i never thought you and i would end up like this
it's not supposed to be this way
and it should have never happened
but if things turn out okay and we can work this out
then maybe it was supposed to happen
maybe it was a good thing
because it will have taught us alot
about each other
and if how much we can overcome
and if we are truly best friends
i don't know
it's 3:05 in the morning
and i am wide awake
but only because i am just thinking about all of this
and i know half of this sounds gay
it sounds like we were dating or something
sorry
laugh
laugh it up
but i am tired of the way things are
and if this is what i have to do to make them different
than so be it
you will learn that the people you love will hurt you the most
worse than anyone else that says bad things about you
or makes fun of you or whatever the case you may be
your family and true friends or boyfriends/girlfriends will hurt you the most
i am sorry i made you hurt
i am sorry you made me hurt
and i am sorry this all ever happened
i am sorry
i am sorry
lauren mykenzi armstrong