an impact
I realized I really do not update this enough anymore.I should. its a way to relay my thoughts and feelings out of myself on onto something ...that itsnt my mind...
Stuff happened with a close friends of mine. Wont go into detaisl because were working on resolving it, not looking for input from others or drama, so its between him and I. Though for any sorta record, it was my fault and I was in the wrong.
Tonight...wow.. I dont know. I FINALLY, for the first time in a year and half, spoke with with a person that ive been chatting to. It was amazing. I was estatic, could not stop smiling the entire time. We talked alot about the troubles that he has been having lately, and for some reason, I feel as if some things I said, impacted him. Made a difference. Made him realize that not every one is the stereotypical fag that doesnt take time out to UNDERSTAND someone. It was one of the most refreshing conversations Ive had in a really long time. We supposedly have plans for tom, a "date" if you will, but the thing about this guys is..simply...hes scared. and I can respect that, and understand and relate, but i must admit, ill will be very upset if he doesnt follow through. Hes worried to see his ex with someone else, or his ex to see him with me, which would cause unneeded friction between everyone, so i told him i would take him somewhere far away from his ex, somewhere in Indiana. he said that sounds safe and it was a go, so well tomorrow.
i dont know why ive pursued him for a year and a half, theres been no need to. but for some reason im drawn to him. like im SUPPOSED to be there for him somehow. so i keep trying. and i finally got through tonight. a great feeling. its nothing sexual or even "romantical" just..something i feel i need to do. so im doing it
work is great. i hate it at times but who doesnt. i told a woman to stuff her small turkeys or her small children in the freezer and if it breaks well fix it. i wasnt sposed to do that. o well. i was irriatated lol.
got a cell phone..some of you could try calling...
night all
and for that guy that im talkin about..i know you read this..and if you do..ill be waiting lol
mykal
Stuff happened with a close friends of mine. Wont go into detaisl because were working on resolving it, not looking for input from others or drama, so its between him and I. Though for any sorta record, it was my fault and I was in the wrong.
Tonight...wow.. I dont know. I FINALLY, for the first time in a year and half, spoke with with a person that ive been chatting to. It was amazing. I was estatic, could not stop smiling the entire time. We talked alot about the troubles that he has been having lately, and for some reason, I feel as if some things I said, impacted him. Made a difference. Made him realize that not every one is the stereotypical fag that doesnt take time out to UNDERSTAND someone. It was one of the most refreshing conversations Ive had in a really long time. We supposedly have plans for tom, a "date" if you will, but the thing about this guys is..simply...hes scared. and I can respect that, and understand and relate, but i must admit, ill will be very upset if he doesnt follow through. Hes worried to see his ex with someone else, or his ex to see him with me, which would cause unneeded friction between everyone, so i told him i would take him somewhere far away from his ex, somewhere in Indiana. he said that sounds safe and it was a go, so well tomorrow.
i dont know why ive pursued him for a year and a half, theres been no need to. but for some reason im drawn to him. like im SUPPOSED to be there for him somehow. so i keep trying. and i finally got through tonight. a great feeling. its nothing sexual or even "romantical" just..something i feel i need to do. so im doing it
work is great. i hate it at times but who doesnt. i told a woman to stuff her small turkeys or her small children in the freezer and if it breaks well fix it. i wasnt sposed to do that. o well. i was irriatated lol.
got a cell phone..some of you could try calling...
night all
and for that guy that im talkin about..i know you read this..and if you do..ill be waiting lol
mykal