FIC - 'The End is Heaven' - Part 04
The End is Heaven
Part 04 - 'fair'
Rating: PG-13 (might go up)
Pairings: Sirius/Remus, Ron/Hermione, Harry/Ginny
Spoilers: Books 1-7
Genre: AU, drama, romance, angst, tragedy
Summary: Remus Lupin survives the Second War and is left to raise Teddy alone.
fic home
01 - the one left behind
02 - short letters
03 - dangerous secret
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There was a long silence . Harry could hear everyone's breathing, the spilled ink falling, drop by drop, to the floor, the sound of the glass being crushed under Remus's weight. They tried to talk to Remus, wanting, more than anything, to help him.
Remus refused to listen.
Ron said he could come stay with his family, that he was sure his mom would more than welcome him. Hermione spoke softly reassuring him that if they talked to Andromeda they could come to an understanding. Harry stayed silent.
Remus said no to all of it. Telling them to go. Asking to be left alone. They refused. Each of them afraid of what Remus might do if left alone. When Remus saw they wouldn't leave he stood, walking carefully away from them towards the door.
Harry reacted first, his feet running after Remus, yelling, “Remus don't!”
But Remus got outside the house before them and with a brief, miserable glance back at them, dissaparated to somewhere where they couldn't reach him.
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They told Molly and Arthur as soon as they got back to the Burrow. Arthur dissaparated almost immediately after being told.
Molly sighed, “He'll know what to do. Now you three stop worrying. This is adult business.”
“No,” Harry said firmly. “We are not children anymore, and it’s our business too.”
Molly frowned a bit, but nodded. She opened her mouth to say something, but there was a loud crack and Arthur appeared in front of her before she could.
“There's nothing on the registry. Andromeda didn't report him. So for now he's not in any official trouble. I've informed Kingsley and McGonagall of the situation as well. Minerva went to visit Andromeda and Kingsley said he would try to look for Remus.” Arthur took a deep breath once he had told everything he had to tell.
“Good,” Molly said sounding a bit more relieved. “That's it then. Nothing more we can do right now.”
Harry felt like saying something, but forced himself to stay quiet. She was right. For as long as they didn't know where Remus was there was nothing they could do. They could only wait and hope he would come back soon.
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Three days after the confrontation Harry got a letter from Remus. In it he apologized for his behavior, and said that he had been wrong and that Teddy was safer with his grandmother.
Harry replied eagerly, asking where Remus was, and asking him to come back. He tried to make clear that no one resented Remus for what he had done, even if they didn't exactly understand why he had done it.
Remus said no. Remus didn't return.
That's when Harry decided that he had to find a way to help.
“I don't think it's really our business to help, Harry.” Hermione told him. “Besides what could we do? We've already tried to talk him into coming back. We even talked to Andromeda and she said she was willing to discuss it with him now that the shock has worn off, but as long as Remus stays in hiding there's not much we can do.”
“I can't just sit back and wait for this to fix itself,” Harry said. “If anyone needs this kind of help, it's Remus.”
Hermione looked at him a little sadly. She too wanted to help Remus, but what could they do?
“Why don't we just find him a new wife,” Ron said out of nowhere, like it was completely obvious and he didn’t know why no one had suggested it yet.
“Ron!” Hermione said, clearly offended by the idea.
“What?” Ron said. “He's sad because Tonks died isn't he? So maybe a new wife will help.”
Hermione stared at him with her mouth wide open. “I can't believe I'm hearing this!”
Ron looked at her. “The let's bring back Tonks then.”
“That's not even funny, Ronald,” Hermione said, her face shocked.
“Yes,” Harry suddenly interrupted. “That's it. We need to bring Tonks back.”
“Harry!” Hermione sounded even more offended that Harry would go along with this madness than she had been by Ron suggesting it.
“Why not?” Harry sounded completely lucid. “Having Tonks back would fix everything.”
“Listen to what you are saying!” Hermione was getting a little hysterical now. She glanced at both Ron and Harry who exchanged a glance and nodded to themselves in agreement. “Tonks is dead,” Hermione said sadly but firmly. “You can't bring back the dead.”
“Why not?” Harry said, his voice sharper than usual.
“Harry... it's just- it's just not reasonable.”
Harry stood then, his face raged. “Remus being alone is what’s not reasonable! Having everyone you care about and love die is not reasonable! Just thinking about it-I-I can't even imagine how horrible it must have been. How horrible it is! Almost everyone I've lost he's lost and then some. Tonks, my mum and dad, Sirius... Remember what he said, Hermione?”
She did. 'Why am I alive?'
“It just isn't fair! None of it!”
“It's just how things happened, Harry.” Hermione said with tears in her eyes. She didn't remember when they had started falling.
“I know, but still,” Harry swallowed, a little more calm, stubbornly wiping away the few tears that have fallen from his own eyes. “We have to try. There is all this magic and some of it must be able to do this. To bring back some happiness in Remus's life. Please, Hermione. Please.”
Hermione looked down at her lap, tears still falling from her eyes. Ron touched her face and wiped them away. “I'll try,” she said softly, leaning towards Ron's touch.
Her thoughts were already filling with the impossibility of it all. But even if it was impossible. Even if it was far fetched and utterly insane to even consider researching this; much less actually doing it; even so she felt hopeful. The little part of her mind that often ignored her reasoning, the part that accepted their far fetched ideas. That little part felt hopeful. There were so many things they didn't know, so much magic out there that they still hadn't seen. But above all she believed they owed it to Remus to try. If anyone deserved something like this, it was surely him.
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Part 05
Part 04 - 'fair'
Rating: PG-13 (might go up)
Pairings: Sirius/Remus, Ron/Hermione, Harry/Ginny
Spoilers: Books 1-7
Genre: AU, drama, romance, angst, tragedy
Summary: Remus Lupin survives the Second War and is left to raise Teddy alone.
fic home
01 - the one left behind
02 - short letters
03 - dangerous secret
---
There was a long silence . Harry could hear everyone's breathing, the spilled ink falling, drop by drop, to the floor, the sound of the glass being crushed under Remus's weight. They tried to talk to Remus, wanting, more than anything, to help him.
Remus refused to listen.
Ron said he could come stay with his family, that he was sure his mom would more than welcome him. Hermione spoke softly reassuring him that if they talked to Andromeda they could come to an understanding. Harry stayed silent.
Remus said no to all of it. Telling them to go. Asking to be left alone. They refused. Each of them afraid of what Remus might do if left alone. When Remus saw they wouldn't leave he stood, walking carefully away from them towards the door.
Harry reacted first, his feet running after Remus, yelling, “Remus don't!”
But Remus got outside the house before them and with a brief, miserable glance back at them, dissaparated to somewhere where they couldn't reach him.
---
They told Molly and Arthur as soon as they got back to the Burrow. Arthur dissaparated almost immediately after being told.
Molly sighed, “He'll know what to do. Now you three stop worrying. This is adult business.”
“No,” Harry said firmly. “We are not children anymore, and it’s our business too.”
Molly frowned a bit, but nodded. She opened her mouth to say something, but there was a loud crack and Arthur appeared in front of her before she could.
“There's nothing on the registry. Andromeda didn't report him. So for now he's not in any official trouble. I've informed Kingsley and McGonagall of the situation as well. Minerva went to visit Andromeda and Kingsley said he would try to look for Remus.” Arthur took a deep breath once he had told everything he had to tell.
“Good,” Molly said sounding a bit more relieved. “That's it then. Nothing more we can do right now.”
Harry felt like saying something, but forced himself to stay quiet. She was right. For as long as they didn't know where Remus was there was nothing they could do. They could only wait and hope he would come back soon.
---
Three days after the confrontation Harry got a letter from Remus. In it he apologized for his behavior, and said that he had been wrong and that Teddy was safer with his grandmother.
Harry replied eagerly, asking where Remus was, and asking him to come back. He tried to make clear that no one resented Remus for what he had done, even if they didn't exactly understand why he had done it.
Remus said no. Remus didn't return.
That's when Harry decided that he had to find a way to help.
“I don't think it's really our business to help, Harry.” Hermione told him. “Besides what could we do? We've already tried to talk him into coming back. We even talked to Andromeda and she said she was willing to discuss it with him now that the shock has worn off, but as long as Remus stays in hiding there's not much we can do.”
“I can't just sit back and wait for this to fix itself,” Harry said. “If anyone needs this kind of help, it's Remus.”
Hermione looked at him a little sadly. She too wanted to help Remus, but what could they do?
“Why don't we just find him a new wife,” Ron said out of nowhere, like it was completely obvious and he didn’t know why no one had suggested it yet.
“Ron!” Hermione said, clearly offended by the idea.
“What?” Ron said. “He's sad because Tonks died isn't he? So maybe a new wife will help.”
Hermione stared at him with her mouth wide open. “I can't believe I'm hearing this!”
Ron looked at her. “The let's bring back Tonks then.”
“That's not even funny, Ronald,” Hermione said, her face shocked.
“Yes,” Harry suddenly interrupted. “That's it. We need to bring Tonks back.”
“Harry!” Hermione sounded even more offended that Harry would go along with this madness than she had been by Ron suggesting it.
“Why not?” Harry sounded completely lucid. “Having Tonks back would fix everything.”
“Listen to what you are saying!” Hermione was getting a little hysterical now. She glanced at both Ron and Harry who exchanged a glance and nodded to themselves in agreement. “Tonks is dead,” Hermione said sadly but firmly. “You can't bring back the dead.”
“Why not?” Harry said, his voice sharper than usual.
“Harry... it's just- it's just not reasonable.”
Harry stood then, his face raged. “Remus being alone is what’s not reasonable! Having everyone you care about and love die is not reasonable! Just thinking about it-I-I can't even imagine how horrible it must have been. How horrible it is! Almost everyone I've lost he's lost and then some. Tonks, my mum and dad, Sirius... Remember what he said, Hermione?”
She did. 'Why am I alive?'
“It just isn't fair! None of it!”
“It's just how things happened, Harry.” Hermione said with tears in her eyes. She didn't remember when they had started falling.
“I know, but still,” Harry swallowed, a little more calm, stubbornly wiping away the few tears that have fallen from his own eyes. “We have to try. There is all this magic and some of it must be able to do this. To bring back some happiness in Remus's life. Please, Hermione. Please.”
Hermione looked down at her lap, tears still falling from her eyes. Ron touched her face and wiped them away. “I'll try,” she said softly, leaning towards Ron's touch.
Her thoughts were already filling with the impossibility of it all. But even if it was impossible. Even if it was far fetched and utterly insane to even consider researching this; much less actually doing it; even so she felt hopeful. The little part of her mind that often ignored her reasoning, the part that accepted their far fetched ideas. That little part felt hopeful. There were so many things they didn't know, so much magic out there that they still hadn't seen. But above all she believed they owed it to Remus to try. If anyone deserved something like this, it was surely him.
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Part 05