My Savior!
Im still not really feeling good. I thought, we thought, it was a migrain and now were pretty sure its a sinus infection. Or...i guess it could have been both, i fealt pretty bad.
Last night I talked on the phone with Bryce for an hour from like 10-11 It was a deep, intellectual, conversation. He brought up some sore points but i like getting out my feelings and Ya, i cried and ya, it fealt damn good.
I called Bryce my savior. MIss, you can testify to this, but my life was going downhill, ive wanted to end it so many times, ive wanted to O.D on drugs, i wanted it to be over with. I hated school, still do, but i thought about quiting and going over to Independant. I was a wreck. People were afraid for me every waking moment and they thought that me being emotianally unstable like that, i would kill myself at any moment. I really didnt care that I had my Europe trip coming up, i wanted to end it.
Its been like that since...freshman year. THe only difference is that I was more stressed out this year with math.
Then Bryce came along. Hes showed me that people care, he does at least and thats all that matters. Hes made me realize that if i did die, people would die with me.
Im still vulnerable, i guess its sexy, but Im a stronger person. I stopped cuttng a while back and I dont need to do that to myself anymore.
I still have insecurities, im still angry at my mother, and he pointed that out. He said that everytime im with my mother and he lookes into my eyes, he sees the pain and anger that I hold so deep. I see it too. Hes so pained when he sees my pain. But I deal with it. I dont need to kill myself over it.
Thank you bryce baby. For everything...EVERYTHING.
Last night I talked on the phone with Bryce for an hour from like 10-11 It was a deep, intellectual, conversation. He brought up some sore points but i like getting out my feelings and Ya, i cried and ya, it fealt damn good.
I called Bryce my savior. MIss, you can testify to this, but my life was going downhill, ive wanted to end it so many times, ive wanted to O.D on drugs, i wanted it to be over with. I hated school, still do, but i thought about quiting and going over to Independant. I was a wreck. People were afraid for me every waking moment and they thought that me being emotianally unstable like that, i would kill myself at any moment. I really didnt care that I had my Europe trip coming up, i wanted to end it.
Its been like that since...freshman year. THe only difference is that I was more stressed out this year with math.
Then Bryce came along. Hes showed me that people care, he does at least and thats all that matters. Hes made me realize that if i did die, people would die with me.
Im still vulnerable, i guess its sexy, but Im a stronger person. I stopped cuttng a while back and I dont need to do that to myself anymore.
I still have insecurities, im still angry at my mother, and he pointed that out. He said that everytime im with my mother and he lookes into my eyes, he sees the pain and anger that I hold so deep. I see it too. Hes so pained when he sees my pain. But I deal with it. I dont need to kill myself over it.
Thank you bryce baby. For everything...EVERYTHING.