alrighty then
ok so basically, on wednesday, i saw him at the y. normally we would have said hey to each other maybe asked how the other person was doing. but instead because of all the ridiculous things that have happened between us, any potential relationship that we could have had as friends is destroyed. i guess it just made me upset because i can't understand how a person can go from saying they could marry you, to acting like they like some random new girl so much more and not acknoledging the fact that the old girl even exsists. i guess it's partially my fault too because i didn't say anything either, but i know if i had that he wouldn't have acknowledged my effort.
a few nights ago i had a dream about him. we were both walking into the math building, he stopped me as i was walking in and i asked me if he could talk with me, i said yes and then we both just apologized and we were friends. and we were both comfortable with talking about whatever even him being with her and me being with him. i know that right now that's so unreasonable but that's all i want. i don't want to be with him i just want him to acknowledge me and be there for me kind of like he used to, to be best friends. i know that can't happen becuase i know that i don't want to hear about her and he doens't want to hear about him because it's akward and it hurts me.
on a lighter note....
at the end of my dream hannah was sitting in a car with amy then brady walks up and turns out they were in brady's car. brady walks up to hannah screaming grabs hannah's face and starts yelling at her, i run up tackle brady and start punching him in the face. then i woke up.
a few nights ago i had a dream about him. we were both walking into the math building, he stopped me as i was walking in and i asked me if he could talk with me, i said yes and then we both just apologized and we were friends. and we were both comfortable with talking about whatever even him being with her and me being with him. i know that right now that's so unreasonable but that's all i want. i don't want to be with him i just want him to acknowledge me and be there for me kind of like he used to, to be best friends. i know that can't happen becuase i know that i don't want to hear about her and he doens't want to hear about him because it's akward and it hurts me.
on a lighter note....
at the end of my dream hannah was sitting in a car with amy then brady walks up and turns out they were in brady's car. brady walks up to hannah screaming grabs hannah's face and starts yelling at her, i run up tackle brady and start punching him in the face. then i woke up.