i dont know...
i dont even know anymore.
it's scary when you can't even read your own feelings.
i thought i was fine but i don't know if i can believe that anymore.
yet... i still don't even know why i'm upset.
there could be a million reasons and it sucks to know that somethings bothering me but i can't figure out what it is.
I am my best friend. I am the only one i've ever been able to trust and that's the way it will always have to be. But somehow, I don't even know if I cant trust myself... i know that sounds silly but i've forgotten how to trust my heart anymore. its like i dont even want to listen to it.
I don't even know what I'm talking about to be honest.
I just know that there's something building up inside and the only way to get it out is with myself. No one's words are going to make me feel better. No one's touch is gonna make me feel better. I need to make myself feel better, I just have to figure out how. I guess I just need to cry. I don't even know if i want to go out tonight. I'm confused about everything. Friends, boys, family, school, life in general. But like, it's way deeper than that. It's about me. I need to know myself better. I know I'll be okay. Just not right now. and it's scary because I don't know when... I just want to know myself again, I don't know where it all went wrong.
I'm just gonna dance now because it's the only thing that's real anymore.
it's scary when you can't even read your own feelings.
i thought i was fine but i don't know if i can believe that anymore.
yet... i still don't even know why i'm upset.
there could be a million reasons and it sucks to know that somethings bothering me but i can't figure out what it is.
I am my best friend. I am the only one i've ever been able to trust and that's the way it will always have to be. But somehow, I don't even know if I cant trust myself... i know that sounds silly but i've forgotten how to trust my heart anymore. its like i dont even want to listen to it.
I don't even know what I'm talking about to be honest.
I just know that there's something building up inside and the only way to get it out is with myself. No one's words are going to make me feel better. No one's touch is gonna make me feel better. I need to make myself feel better, I just have to figure out how. I guess I just need to cry. I don't even know if i want to go out tonight. I'm confused about everything. Friends, boys, family, school, life in general. But like, it's way deeper than that. It's about me. I need to know myself better. I know I'll be okay. Just not right now. and it's scary because I don't know when... I just want to know myself again, I don't know where it all went wrong.
I'm just gonna dance now because it's the only thing that's real anymore.