mmm...bradley goodness

[myhole]

he will be on soon. tomorrow is his last day. hopefully he can come thursday and play with me and eat pizza together. yum. i love him. he will be on soon. sun chips sun chips music sex sun chips happy thoughts missful thoughts i'm hot where are you to keep me warm i miss you and i'm dripping dripping dripping with sweat for you. more later

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[squal]

...this is the last one...i cant take anymore...god...you stopped getting wet over me...god that hurts so fucking much...maybe its trite to even bring up...but I stopped being that person you wanted so badly...the only person you could trust enough to give that too...sex is personal and this all hurts...you loved me so much...every post...every post....every goddamned post!!!....I wont let myself post about you....I try to erase you from my mind because your not personal to me anymore...was it really worth loving me everyday just for the love i could give you when i saw you...or talk to you...or anything on the minimal scale that it was? I dont even have that now...i didnt even know what i had then...i have no choice but to move on and forget you...i cant sit here everyday and wait and love...i have no phone call to wait for...i have no bond with you anymore...i have nothing special anymore...i have less than what a friend has and even less than people who dont even dare deserve you have...but i dont deserve you either...im just a fucking ghost...i feel like all of this is like me and hilary all over again...i waited for 2 years and hurt and hurt and hurt...and i finally realized i couldnt make her love me...i couldnt show her how sincere i was...and finally i gave up...and when i did i found you...and i was never so happy in my entire life...but now this is that...and again im just a ghost...i waited for you everyday...i wait today...i wait to say something that could make your heart overpower your mind...i wait and i die everyday...and my heart crys everyday...and ive never felt this much pain...and i cant deny it anymore...i cant deny that your not coming back...i have to let go...because your not coming back...because there is nothing i can do anymore...the love i give you now is fleeting...it falls on deaf ears...and a broken heart...i am accepting this...I have to...because your not coming back...and this will be the last thing I say to you...because I cant hold on anymore...if i speak to you all i do is try to get you back...because i know its there somewhere in you...thats not fair to you...thats not me being fair to your thoughts...to what you truly want...and its just gonna hurt you...and push you away even further...i cant hold on to nothing...because your not coming back...ill never have that love again....that complete trust in one another...that neither of us would ever hurt each other...that our flesh didnt matter...our bodys colliding...only our hearts mattered as we merged into one...as we made love...ill never hold that fragile frame of yours ever again...ill never kiss that beautiful bottom lip ever again...ill never rub your smooth lilly white skin ever again...and ill never see that face...that face that was so happy...that face that was so...in love...ever...again...because your not coming back.................................................and the ghost floats........never to be seen again...........he whispers.............goodbye my one true love.......goodbye...