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I'm just so unhappy. Its hard to completely describe if you don't know my mother, or my family. And how unbeliavbly disfunctional it is.
I'm not allowed to do shit, because I got a c in Anatomy last quarter. Therefore its completely obvious how much I suck, how much I didn't study, How much I'm just not good enough. This is what they tell me and this is how I feel. this is why I over eat to compensate for love. this is why i'm upset because they don't like my boyfriend. they don't like my priorities. my mom thought we were going down to capital tomarrow to look at their nursing program, i told her no, i want to look at the pre- pa program. she said, but why? Why don't you call chamberlain or Mccn? And I said cuz their busy and I need transcripts first, what am i going to talk to them about?
If I get any more c's supposibly i'm then paying for the classes. This is why they are going to hurt me more than they know. how do you NOT be supportive of your kids???
I take 20 credit hours and have been working a full time job, and have generally been happy when NOT at home. See the trend? See why I hate being here? I'm just never good enough, and I never will be, and they can't let it go that I'm not a junior version of my mother.
I hate it. I hate being here so much. I hate suffocating. I hate crying because of this. I hate taking this out on the one person who's continually there for me. I just hate this sooo much. And they just don't give a shit.
I'm not allowed to do shit, because I got a c in Anatomy last quarter. Therefore its completely obvious how much I suck, how much I didn't study, How much I'm just not good enough. This is what they tell me and this is how I feel. this is why I over eat to compensate for love. this is why i'm upset because they don't like my boyfriend. they don't like my priorities. my mom thought we were going down to capital tomarrow to look at their nursing program, i told her no, i want to look at the pre- pa program. she said, but why? Why don't you call chamberlain or Mccn? And I said cuz their busy and I need transcripts first, what am i going to talk to them about?
If I get any more c's supposibly i'm then paying for the classes. This is why they are going to hurt me more than they know. how do you NOT be supportive of your kids???
I take 20 credit hours and have been working a full time job, and have generally been happy when NOT at home. See the trend? See why I hate being here? I'm just never good enough, and I never will be, and they can't let it go that I'm not a junior version of my mother.
I hate it. I hate being here so much. I hate suffocating. I hate crying because of this. I hate taking this out on the one person who's continually there for me. I just hate this sooo much. And they just don't give a shit.