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i want to be on the beach at hanlan's point, naked, every saturday afternoon.
i want to go out dancing. i miss vazaleen, darkrave, the vatikan, monday night dance cave, wednesday nights at the trash, thursday nights at the keg.
i want to go to raves on cherry beach.
i want to go to gallery openings, art shows, and exhibitions.
i want to curl up in the afternoon, or morning, or at night, with friends and lovers for naps and love.
i want everyone to meet up for dinner. family night.
i want to work hard. i want my job to be saving the planet.
i feel sad and full of longing for all these things. today i am feeling trapped in the desert castle. i walked out to the duck ponds and sloughs. i fed a family of geese. the goslings were in the gangly dinosaur stage, loosing their down but before their flight feathers had come in. the ducks, greebes and coots eyed me suspiciously and swam or flew away when i tossed pieces of bread towards them.
the things i want seem so impossibly far away from me.
i want friends to do all these things with me.
i have a job, it fits my criteria, but here it is in edmonton and so far away from everything else. and everyone else.
i don't know why i am so sad today.
i don't know why i only want these impossible things today.
i want to go out dancing. i miss vazaleen, darkrave, the vatikan, monday night dance cave, wednesday nights at the trash, thursday nights at the keg.
i want to go to raves on cherry beach.
i want to go to gallery openings, art shows, and exhibitions.
i want to curl up in the afternoon, or morning, or at night, with friends and lovers for naps and love.
i want everyone to meet up for dinner. family night.
i want to work hard. i want my job to be saving the planet.
i feel sad and full of longing for all these things. today i am feeling trapped in the desert castle. i walked out to the duck ponds and sloughs. i fed a family of geese. the goslings were in the gangly dinosaur stage, loosing their down but before their flight feathers had come in. the ducks, greebes and coots eyed me suspiciously and swam or flew away when i tossed pieces of bread towards them.
the things i want seem so impossibly far away from me.
i want friends to do all these things with me.
i have a job, it fits my criteria, but here it is in edmonton and so far away from everything else. and everyone else.
i don't know why i am so sad today.
i don't know why i only want these impossible things today.