she still hangs like a star...
..and fucken glows in the dark
lovely. i am lost between four walls, and addicted. i take hit after hit and i am not stopping. i am up until past dawn and i am shaking. shaking my head. shiny in the middle, and spread around my center. murder me, full of indiscretion, i'll give you an audience of your personal selection. your abducted love, my deducted heart, seduced into the oblivion of the impossible. but i touched it, you can't take away from me the knowledge, of the feel of you in fleeting contact. the graze, introduced me to a tormented future glazed in smiles, and the deceit of possibility, undermined my ability, to hold you to unmade promises. you say i can't traspass the premises, of a world i taught you to build. this year something was utterly killed, so that there is no going back, or foward, that left both us different. this unannounced breaking news, has been said out loud, and i renounce my quest of fighting. i give in to your conclusions and give up my delusions associated with you. defeat leaves an unidentified feeling within me. your words are binding me, and they think i'm fond of breathing. i am in no hurry to correct behavior or belief, and they have earned this relief, after all my years of bleeding. i protect my reservation, on a table for one, serving, secrets and confessions. we might have a chance at a different version she said. but i am stuck in the original, because i was struck with the maximal percision with your first arrow. my mind is narrow, with my wants and desires concerning you. blue was the first and the last of our colors. i follow your lines of explanations, disagree with your convictions. i hang idle in my addictions. i bang shots into bones, but i remain whole, i kiss bullets and my gun, and aim to keep our world. fire at me, get at me, give me a truth i can believe. i know i loved you more than you ever loved me, unless you left your affection under my radar, i have considered so thus far. with the door to now ajar, my scope of view sees more than i can comprehend, never a lover, always a friend. i can't begin to explain, but you never asked to understand. so i stand tonight trying hard to commit to a direction, and after much comtemplation, nothing is any clearer than before we exchanged these words. these words are the goodbye we both meant but didn't offer, now i know i am meant to suffer, the dreams you taught me in my sleep. you had me, you had me so good. everything i rendered you was true.
god i used to love you
i still do
lovely. i am lost between four walls, and addicted. i take hit after hit and i am not stopping. i am up until past dawn and i am shaking. shaking my head. shiny in the middle, and spread around my center. murder me, full of indiscretion, i'll give you an audience of your personal selection. your abducted love, my deducted heart, seduced into the oblivion of the impossible. but i touched it, you can't take away from me the knowledge, of the feel of you in fleeting contact. the graze, introduced me to a tormented future glazed in smiles, and the deceit of possibility, undermined my ability, to hold you to unmade promises. you say i can't traspass the premises, of a world i taught you to build. this year something was utterly killed, so that there is no going back, or foward, that left both us different. this unannounced breaking news, has been said out loud, and i renounce my quest of fighting. i give in to your conclusions and give up my delusions associated with you. defeat leaves an unidentified feeling within me. your words are binding me, and they think i'm fond of breathing. i am in no hurry to correct behavior or belief, and they have earned this relief, after all my years of bleeding. i protect my reservation, on a table for one, serving, secrets and confessions. we might have a chance at a different version she said. but i am stuck in the original, because i was struck with the maximal percision with your first arrow. my mind is narrow, with my wants and desires concerning you. blue was the first and the last of our colors. i follow your lines of explanations, disagree with your convictions. i hang idle in my addictions. i bang shots into bones, but i remain whole, i kiss bullets and my gun, and aim to keep our world. fire at me, get at me, give me a truth i can believe. i know i loved you more than you ever loved me, unless you left your affection under my radar, i have considered so thus far. with the door to now ajar, my scope of view sees more than i can comprehend, never a lover, always a friend. i can't begin to explain, but you never asked to understand. so i stand tonight trying hard to commit to a direction, and after much comtemplation, nothing is any clearer than before we exchanged these words. these words are the goodbye we both meant but didn't offer, now i know i am meant to suffer, the dreams you taught me in my sleep. you had me, you had me so good. everything i rendered you was true.
god i used to love you
i still do