Enough quizzes, time for a real entry
Okay, the play is over. TEAR. I really did have a lot of fun with this play. I didnt think i was and i worried a lot, but i dont know, it was just great to be amidst it all again. So here's the real brain buster this evening. I am thinking alot about my major. I dont know what to do. I really would love to do theatre, totally pick it as my major and go with it, and all that encompasses it. But then there is the worry of money, and stability, and all that goes along with it. I mean, i'm going to college to get a good education so i can get very good jobs...arent i? Oh i dont even know anymore. The way i look at it, if i do choose theatre, i would have my acting opportunities here at Eastern. But then after sophomore year or so i would transfer to somewhere like ISU where the competition is a little harder, to see how i fare there. But i have so many doubts about it. So many questions. Like What if I'm not good enough, what if im just kidding myself about acting. Sure i love it, but hey back at home there were people better than me, and there always will be those who are. I mean, i am fine with it, I just dont know how willing i am to fight for the roles and the jobs and all that. I dont think i like the idea of being a "starving actor".
I guess the basic facts are, I know i am hardworking when it comes down to it. I mean, senior year I held down a pretty good job (at least for high schoolers), i went to state 3 times (i know it wasnt all my doing, but i had a pretty good part in each id like to think), I saved and paid for all my clothes, prom, Cancun, and the little 200 dollars here, 100 there for college, I passed high school on the honor roll, got into college, and held a serious relationship. (I was thinking about all this last night as i lay in my bed trying to sleep) so I dont think any of that could be accomplished if i werent a hardworking person.Of course I had SO many wonderful people who helped me do all of those wonderful things and to them (you know who you are) I am entirely grateful, but I did what i had to do, you know. And if i look at it that way, then as long as i have a mad passion for acting, and i do, I know i would do what it takes to keep myself going financially from one place to another. That being said I guess my decision would be made, but for those of you who know me best, you know im a scaredy cat. I still am very unsure about it, adn i dont want to make the wrong choice. So help me, I will not end up like my parents or siblings, married at 16, pregnant at 17, and officailly poor with no way out. And i just want to make the best decision possible so i dont end up like that. I dont know...where is my guardian angel to tell me what to do? OH we arent in Grease, are we? oops. I guess, for now, I am going to keep my major undecided, get my gen eds done, but im still gonna audition for the plays and such. And who knows what will happen in the future, but for now im keeping it this way until im 100 percent sure of what i want to do.
Something interesting though. My intro to theatre teacher helped out with Everyman, and she is the one who told me after auditions that i did really good and all the many directors there were like "whats her major?", but anyway, today we were talking about acting and things i would love to do in the class, and she told me she doesnt usually recommend people to go into acting, because its So hard and so difficult to find jobs and such.she said she is usually like if you can find anything else that you could be happy with, go for that, but she said in my case she doesnt know why im still undecided. She said her and all the rest of the directors were talking about it, adn they think im good. they want me to declare a theatre major....then again im not sure if they mean that or they just need more theatre majors for the program,, i have been warned that almost any of the theatre people will pressure you into declaring theatre. I just dont know. hooooo, my brain hurts now. I think im gonna go take a nap..:)
I guess the basic facts are, I know i am hardworking when it comes down to it. I mean, senior year I held down a pretty good job (at least for high schoolers), i went to state 3 times (i know it wasnt all my doing, but i had a pretty good part in each id like to think), I saved and paid for all my clothes, prom, Cancun, and the little 200 dollars here, 100 there for college, I passed high school on the honor roll, got into college, and held a serious relationship. (I was thinking about all this last night as i lay in my bed trying to sleep) so I dont think any of that could be accomplished if i werent a hardworking person.Of course I had SO many wonderful people who helped me do all of those wonderful things and to them (you know who you are) I am entirely grateful, but I did what i had to do, you know. And if i look at it that way, then as long as i have a mad passion for acting, and i do, I know i would do what it takes to keep myself going financially from one place to another. That being said I guess my decision would be made, but for those of you who know me best, you know im a scaredy cat. I still am very unsure about it, adn i dont want to make the wrong choice. So help me, I will not end up like my parents or siblings, married at 16, pregnant at 17, and officailly poor with no way out. And i just want to make the best decision possible so i dont end up like that. I dont know...where is my guardian angel to tell me what to do? OH we arent in Grease, are we? oops. I guess, for now, I am going to keep my major undecided, get my gen eds done, but im still gonna audition for the plays and such. And who knows what will happen in the future, but for now im keeping it this way until im 100 percent sure of what i want to do.
Something interesting though. My intro to theatre teacher helped out with Everyman, and she is the one who told me after auditions that i did really good and all the many directors there were like "whats her major?", but anyway, today we were talking about acting and things i would love to do in the class, and she told me she doesnt usually recommend people to go into acting, because its So hard and so difficult to find jobs and such.she said she is usually like if you can find anything else that you could be happy with, go for that, but she said in my case she doesnt know why im still undecided. She said her and all the rest of the directors were talking about it, adn they think im good. they want me to declare a theatre major....then again im not sure if they mean that or they just need more theatre majors for the program,, i have been warned that almost any of the theatre people will pressure you into declaring theatre. I just dont know. hooooo, my brain hurts now. I think im gonna go take a nap..:)