if someone had said 3 yrs. from now,you'd be long gone,I'd stand up and punch them out
Cuz they're all wrong....
If you think about it,dating is a rather stupid thing to do. You hook up with assholes,have a good time for a while and end up worse than you were before. Guys are just....an unfulfilled promise. I can't explain it,that's just how I see them. The way they treat you when you first hook up,the way they make you feel and the things they do...it's all fake. Everything about them is fake. They come in and flash their sexy smile and touch you with their big sexy hands and gaze at you with their bedroom eyes. For a minute it feels like you're the only two people in the world and all the heartache and drama is a thing of the past and this is what you have been waiting for. Then the drama starts. All the girls that had felt that way about them,show their ugly ass and you find out all this bad shit about them.But you try to believe what you want to,you try to see it through,you try to think he's different and not the way they all say.... Then you wake up one day and the sun is shining the birds are singing and YOU JUST WANT TO DIE b/c you know that he is waking up to this beautiful day with someone ELSE and making someone ELSE feel good and you did EVERYTHING and you care but you don't and you just don't want to be alone b/c they made you remember what it's like to be wanted but you don't want to be with them b/c you hate them for what they did but you love them b/c you can't have them anymore. So you go find another guy to fill the void and you're STUPID enough to believe all the shit you did with the last one and then that one is gone and the next one is gone and the next and the next and somewhere along the line you get an std or pregnant or beat up or EVERY BAD THING IMAGINABLE. But then,THEN the man of your dreams comes along....atleast you think so....and you're so unbelievably fucked up that you can't love him,you can't trust him,no matter how hard you try or what you do. And you start to wonder if you should hate yourself for not being able to love this man or if you're doing yourself a favor b/c you know that he would just end up like the other ones.....When is it time to trust him? how do you know when it's o.k. to feel good and it's o.k. to open up and it's o.k. to fall in love??? I'm not a sappy person,I'm not romantic,I have always thought it's bullshit. But today I hurt,today I'm heartbroken,today I'm wondering how fucked up I really am. Today I feel like I would rather die than not be with the one I love. And that one is NOT Matt or any other guys I blab about.
If you think about it,dating is a rather stupid thing to do. You hook up with assholes,have a good time for a while and end up worse than you were before. Guys are just....an unfulfilled promise. I can't explain it,that's just how I see them. The way they treat you when you first hook up,the way they make you feel and the things they do...it's all fake. Everything about them is fake. They come in and flash their sexy smile and touch you with their big sexy hands and gaze at you with their bedroom eyes. For a minute it feels like you're the only two people in the world and all the heartache and drama is a thing of the past and this is what you have been waiting for. Then the drama starts. All the girls that had felt that way about them,show their ugly ass and you find out all this bad shit about them.But you try to believe what you want to,you try to see it through,you try to think he's different and not the way they all say.... Then you wake up one day and the sun is shining the birds are singing and YOU JUST WANT TO DIE b/c you know that he is waking up to this beautiful day with someone ELSE and making someone ELSE feel good and you did EVERYTHING and you care but you don't and you just don't want to be alone b/c they made you remember what it's like to be wanted but you don't want to be with them b/c you hate them for what they did but you love them b/c you can't have them anymore. So you go find another guy to fill the void and you're STUPID enough to believe all the shit you did with the last one and then that one is gone and the next one is gone and the next and the next and somewhere along the line you get an std or pregnant or beat up or EVERY BAD THING IMAGINABLE. But then,THEN the man of your dreams comes along....atleast you think so....and you're so unbelievably fucked up that you can't love him,you can't trust him,no matter how hard you try or what you do. And you start to wonder if you should hate yourself for not being able to love this man or if you're doing yourself a favor b/c you know that he would just end up like the other ones.....When is it time to trust him? how do you know when it's o.k. to feel good and it's o.k. to open up and it's o.k. to fall in love??? I'm not a sappy person,I'm not romantic,I have always thought it's bullshit. But today I hurt,today I'm heartbroken,today I'm wondering how fucked up I really am. Today I feel like I would rather die than not be with the one I love. And that one is NOT Matt or any other guys I blab about.