Hu??!
You know when people say everything will trun out ok or believe in yourself? do you ever wonder if they are telling the truth or are they just being blindly optimistic in turn making you feel that it is going to be okay and then it turns out not to be okay and then you feel totally rejected by everyone because it seems like people are lying to you just so they don't have to go into detail about your anxiety over a certain subject? Yes I am anxious and am an idealistic dreamer. I believe that no time is spent better than to dream of how things sould be (only so I don't settle)(settle as in give up not as in not party like there is no tomarrow) BUt lately I have been thinking what happens if my idealistic dreams are just a vain attempt and looking at mylife through a pretty frame rather than reality. I cannot dream up enough alternitives therefore am bound to be let down and eventually be doomed for emotional breakdown and out of hope for reality i'll stop fighting and be totaly miserable and make impulsive desicions that end up badly. What does a peoson like me do??!
P.S. this is totaly a self thought and no one is to feel guilty or take this personally. I love you guys!!!
Michael