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its funny how in such short time you can start to love someone so much.
and i know this sounds wrong on my part but i finally found someone that i can see myself being COMPLETELY faithful to. someone i CANT lie to because if i did i know it would just kill me inside. someone that im not afraid to show EVERY side of myself to. and im not embarassed for him to see me cry, or of when i chew like a cow on the phone. hes someone that i can never see myself getting tired or bored with....and when im with him he gives me that feeling that makes me think i NEVER want to leave his side...i never want to leave HIM.
but he doesnt know the power he has over me. how he can make me the happiest person alive. but sometimes also the saddest. how he can make my heart jump from side to side, and how he makes me think all those little crazy things going through my head. all the WHAT IFs. sometimes i cant help but think "WHAT IF he leaves me".
its the scariest thought in the world. hes become a huge part of me. hes the last piece of the puzzle. im scared because if he leaves me, ill be incomplete..... hes the first guy ive ever said I LOVE YOU to.
I miss aaron so much. even though he made me feel like eew today.
and i know this sounds wrong on my part but i finally found someone that i can see myself being COMPLETELY faithful to. someone i CANT lie to because if i did i know it would just kill me inside. someone that im not afraid to show EVERY side of myself to. and im not embarassed for him to see me cry, or of when i chew like a cow on the phone. hes someone that i can never see myself getting tired or bored with....and when im with him he gives me that feeling that makes me think i NEVER want to leave his side...i never want to leave HIM.
but he doesnt know the power he has over me. how he can make me the happiest person alive. but sometimes also the saddest. how he can make my heart jump from side to side, and how he makes me think all those little crazy things going through my head. all the WHAT IFs. sometimes i cant help but think "WHAT IF he leaves me".
its the scariest thought in the world. hes become a huge part of me. hes the last piece of the puzzle. im scared because if he leaves me, ill be incomplete..... hes the first guy ive ever said I LOVE YOU to.
I miss aaron so much. even though he made me feel like eew today.