Aug 21, 2005 18:59
I feel selfish.
I always complain about the people in my life, stupid petty things that happen.
Then I end up feeling like an idiot.
I can't help the way I feel most of the time.
But I seriously hate how I am.
I try to act so mature, so in control, so ready for the future.
I'm not at all.
I feel like I have to constantly mode myself to the person every one expects me to be.
How can I be who my friends, family.... teachers....
How can I be who they want me to be if I don't even know who I want to be?
Aren't you suppose to have some sort of idea on how you want to act or be?
I have no idea.
I pretty much hate everything I say, do.
I love my friends and family.
I think I expect to much from them.