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Everything has fallen to pieces,
Earth is dying, help me Jesus
im about THISCLOSE to frikin going off...
im sick of everything, i need some change, or maybe i need things to go back to normal, who knows what i need, i hate the fact that i get so upset about this stuff, and i hate the fact that i cry over it, its ridiculous, i realize more and more each day how effed up things are, not just in my life but in this world, and sitting here alone, all i can do is think, talking to dustin for over an hour helped get my mind off it and onto better things like this summer, everything i write, is angry and incoherent i go back and read it and im like wtf was i thinking, its so random and not my normal style, maybe all this freakyness is just me changing and growing up and not liking it, i want to hold on to certain things in the past bc its so hard and hurts to let them go, maybe im not ready for all the change that im going through, i missed out on so much these past 5-10 years make that my whole life and grew up too fast, now that things are (at times) calming down i want to be a kid again, and the other half of me is growing up, im searching for something, and i cant put my finger on it, i know its not god bc what im looking for is what is going to help me let go, maybe its something or someone right under my nose..
Earth is dying, help me Jesus
im about THISCLOSE to frikin going off...
im sick of everything, i need some change, or maybe i need things to go back to normal, who knows what i need, i hate the fact that i get so upset about this stuff, and i hate the fact that i cry over it, its ridiculous, i realize more and more each day how effed up things are, not just in my life but in this world, and sitting here alone, all i can do is think, talking to dustin for over an hour helped get my mind off it and onto better things like this summer, everything i write, is angry and incoherent i go back and read it and im like wtf was i thinking, its so random and not my normal style, maybe all this freakyness is just me changing and growing up and not liking it, i want to hold on to certain things in the past bc its so hard and hurts to let them go, maybe im not ready for all the change that im going through, i missed out on so much these past 5-10 years make that my whole life and grew up too fast, now that things are (at times) calming down i want to be a kid again, and the other half of me is growing up, im searching for something, and i cant put my finger on it, i know its not god bc what im looking for is what is going to help me let go, maybe its something or someone right under my nose..