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Driving to school this morning, I saw a long funeral procession. Men in dark blue uniforms perched on motorcycles with blinking red and blue lights escorted the long line of cars, everyone dressed in their proper dark attire. Of course, my mind immediately shot to the last funeral I went to, my father's, in late July. I knew I had to sit and
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its hard for me to imagine all of this happening not so long ago as well.. it seems like youve taken it all in and just pushed it back, hiding it in the back of your mind where you never look to find it. i know that we never talk about this.. not enough anyways. your fathers death was a horrible thing fo ryou, i know it.. but look at the life long memories you have of him. theyll never deteriorate.
im sorry that im so optimistic when i talk to you about this. i know that sometimes you just want for me to tell you that youre right, thats hes gone and that youll never see him again. but, i dont know bella.. i cant tell you that because i know its not true. i know that you will see him again and i do believe in fate and will and such.. God has a plan for us all, and He wanted your father to Himself. God seems horrible for that, i know.. because YOU needed him HERE, but just htink of the complete happiness thats enveloping him now. His soul is singing, and shining, and is full of complete love and adoration for everything. im sure what he is filling now is perfect. im jealous.
i love you anna. my distance lately is just me going through a time of unsatisfaction. im doing the whole, "tear myself away from the world" thing again and it has nothing to do with you. im just tired of the way things are... and i know you are as well. i love you so much, best friend of mine. this post was completely beautiful. youre oh so gifted. it lights me up.
<3 you.
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But at least I know I'll have a best friend to turn to.
You know you've helped me more than anyone ever has/has ever attempted/will ever be able to. You're my angel, and you know this. I've told you many a time. The best anti-depressant/counselor/grief therapy a girl could ask for. I love you.
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