HIM

[myhairispretty]

He is so confusing. He'd rather have these relationships that are long distance and only last a couple to a few months and that he knows won't go anywhere than to have the real thing. I know he has issues with abandonment and rejection, Hell what do I have to do to prove I won't do that to him? He keeps saying I deserve better. I know I'm a hell of a catch and any guy would be so fucking lucky to receive my love, but he won't take it there with me. He doesn't want me to leave. He gets all upset if I even mention it. He's asking for time. He's been in my life for over 5 years. Hell seems like forever sometimes. Hell we were engaged once. I know we can have that again. Am I being impatient? I love him so much and I want to be here for him. I can get so upset and I'm set on leaving. Then, he gets upset and starts to cry and he'll ask me not to leave. So I stay. Am I being stupid? Am I weak? Obviously, I think I am if I have to ask.

I wish he would just take a chance at being happy again.
::falls on deaf ears::
Annette