life?
oh my god. reality just set in. In the next 6 months I will need to write a thesis, graduate from school, find a job, move to a new city (I hope) and find a place to live, and generally be a grown-up type person. how the FUCK am I going to do all that????
Complications: my family actually WANTS to take me and Mallory on a graduation trip that is longer than 4 days (when will I have time to carve out a week or two? Especially with new job prospects...), moving may be more complicated if Matt decides to come with me (and what if we live together? who is going to let us have 4 cats in one, surely small, apartment? and how will it be to live with someone who I'm also dating?), and somehow I would really, really like to be financially independent (meaning I cannot go on unpaid internships alone, so I'll have to get 2 jobs maybe? what arts/cultural institutions are actually hiring right now?????)
FUCK FUCK FUCK
ok. those are really bratty concerns to have...but still...they are concerns. I am thankful that I have a family who likes to take me on trips, and who will let me stay on the parent plan for at least a little while after graduation. But that makes it even harder because I feel even less prepared for the real world and I'm SCARED.
Well then, LJ, hello again.
Complications: my family actually WANTS to take me and Mallory on a graduation trip that is longer than 4 days (when will I have time to carve out a week or two? Especially with new job prospects...), moving may be more complicated if Matt decides to come with me (and what if we live together? who is going to let us have 4 cats in one, surely small, apartment? and how will it be to live with someone who I'm also dating?), and somehow I would really, really like to be financially independent (meaning I cannot go on unpaid internships alone, so I'll have to get 2 jobs maybe? what arts/cultural institutions are actually hiring right now?????)
FUCK FUCK FUCK
ok. those are really bratty concerns to have...but still...they are concerns. I am thankful that I have a family who likes to take me on trips, and who will let me stay on the parent plan for at least a little while after graduation. But that makes it even harder because I feel even less prepared for the real world and I'm SCARED.
Well then, LJ, hello again.