have a good day at work!
erg... erg...
i woke up feeling really shitty today. about everything. i've been working a lot. my body really aches. i have a hang nail. i stayed in bed for most of the day. cj went to a family bbq thing. i asked him if he'd be home in time to at least give me a ride to work. he said of course. and he left at like 12:30 and now it's almost 6. he called and told me he was staying. so i have to walk to work. it's almost time for me to leave. but i'm soooo pissed off.
not cuz i have to walk that doesn't bug me. but just that he said he'd do something for me and he's just brushing me off. like i don't matter. he does that sometimes. and it's making me feel even more insignificant. not only that but... i have to work all the time. i get two days off a week and i spend my time off with him. and he doesn't have any responsibilities... he doesn't work. so he can just go have funn whenever he wants. i don't get to go have fun. most of the time i'm too tired to go out. it's just really unfair. then there are times when i want to buy something for myself and he tries to guilt me out of it. he always does that. he tries to make me feel bad about spending my money on things that i want. and that's not fair neither.
i'm probably going to be late for work again. cuz i don't want to leave and get there in such a bad mood. but because i'm late so much, they've cut my hours back a little bit. which is bullshit. there's a girl that works with me and she clocks in on time everyday but then she spends more time on the phone and fucking around than working... she didn't get her hours cut. not kidding... she clocks in on time everyday and fucks around at work. a lot of us like to take longer lunch breaks which are off the clock but she doesn't. she takes longer "10 minute" breaks on the clock. and she had the nerve to start talking shit about my longer lunches. i said, "well, at least i take my time off the clock..." the other night she went to her "10 minute" break and came back 45 minutes later... i was just like, "oh, i didn't know you were coming back..."
and cj knows about all that. and instead of being here for me like a good boyfriend, he's out stuffing his ugly face and drinking with his friends... "they're my cousins, that's family..." is his excuse. but i'll bet he never tells them stuff like, "i gotta hang out with my girlfriend today, she takes care of my ass and i'm very lucky to have her..." bet he doesn't care.
whatever...
stupid.
i woke up feeling really shitty today. about everything. i've been working a lot. my body really aches. i have a hang nail. i stayed in bed for most of the day. cj went to a family bbq thing. i asked him if he'd be home in time to at least give me a ride to work. he said of course. and he left at like 12:30 and now it's almost 6. he called and told me he was staying. so i have to walk to work. it's almost time for me to leave. but i'm soooo pissed off.
not cuz i have to walk that doesn't bug me. but just that he said he'd do something for me and he's just brushing me off. like i don't matter. he does that sometimes. and it's making me feel even more insignificant. not only that but... i have to work all the time. i get two days off a week and i spend my time off with him. and he doesn't have any responsibilities... he doesn't work. so he can just go have funn whenever he wants. i don't get to go have fun. most of the time i'm too tired to go out. it's just really unfair. then there are times when i want to buy something for myself and he tries to guilt me out of it. he always does that. he tries to make me feel bad about spending my money on things that i want. and that's not fair neither.
i'm probably going to be late for work again. cuz i don't want to leave and get there in such a bad mood. but because i'm late so much, they've cut my hours back a little bit. which is bullshit. there's a girl that works with me and she clocks in on time everyday but then she spends more time on the phone and fucking around than working... she didn't get her hours cut. not kidding... she clocks in on time everyday and fucks around at work. a lot of us like to take longer lunch breaks which are off the clock but she doesn't. she takes longer "10 minute" breaks on the clock. and she had the nerve to start talking shit about my longer lunches. i said, "well, at least i take my time off the clock..." the other night she went to her "10 minute" break and came back 45 minutes later... i was just like, "oh, i didn't know you were coming back..."
and cj knows about all that. and instead of being here for me like a good boyfriend, he's out stuffing his ugly face and drinking with his friends... "they're my cousins, that's family..." is his excuse. but i'll bet he never tells them stuff like, "i gotta hang out with my girlfriend today, she takes care of my ass and i'm very lucky to have her..." bet he doesn't care.
whatever...
stupid.