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fucking boys.... fucking cj... fucken... everything...
i'm so tired. i'm so sick and tired of this. everyone says that i'm way better than this but it must be love. or something close... idk. idk. idk.
i'm soooo... frustrated. we would be happy... cept he has to go off and do what he does... he's apologized to me a million times but it means nothing because... it still hurts. like... if you beat my dog and said sorry to me, i wouldn't forgive you if you continue to beat my dog... he's just apologizing to make me feel better.
why am i such sad girl? i've always been a sad girl... i've always tried to hide it with my ultra cool exterior... and it's worked for the most part. but i can't deny this heavy dark cloud of ickyness inside. i have sad eyes. i've noticed...
i'm so tired. i'm so sick and tired of this. everyone says that i'm way better than this but it must be love. or something close... idk. idk. idk.
i'm soooo... frustrated. we would be happy... cept he has to go off and do what he does... he's apologized to me a million times but it means nothing because... it still hurts. like... if you beat my dog and said sorry to me, i wouldn't forgive you if you continue to beat my dog... he's just apologizing to make me feel better.
why am i such sad girl? i've always been a sad girl... i've always tried to hide it with my ultra cool exterior... and it's worked for the most part. but i can't deny this heavy dark cloud of ickyness inside. i have sad eyes. i've noticed...